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「我沒事。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AvUHk44Ul
「⋯⋯我超好的。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiIsaNI442
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYBI5Jhn2b
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMWM2sfS2r
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9AEfWqt6c
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRiqOF7V5PV
—還有很多8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzeHF8PkX7
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEet7Kko6f
—通勤的時候不太塞車8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7unCXAMs1
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYa083x4oqk
—還有很多其他8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVsJXdEvex
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27OL4iWLyB
—還有很多意外的小確幸8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANhR6JaUow
—房東太太也很好相處8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvs5ViOUwUJ
—你知道8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4o6A62Shkl
—這種便利的小幸運真的是8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDazJ1W4VTo
—可遇不可求8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zXQuAAIVW
—所以我最近心情真的8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMd1Hq34gm7
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SSBu0qki7
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZG51kvji5
—大家人都8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHZVUWyXkS
—該怎麼說8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G4hvKTx5W
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ig6buTaCe
—開始變熟了之後8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIpGmfx6Fh
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnG4Ay3zch
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3U2A8rGNYj
—架子不高，很有責任感8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoPXYRVdhE
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlflK4IZdP
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKH4eM3por7
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnKBdfuxC7
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd00vWOokCj
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褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWu8EJ3VIx1
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTq4LwBe8D
「哼哼哼～」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52eReoGWPW
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVag5SyvvKv
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQhOU57OyV
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEqDvl3OLP
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxioIsP2ic
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKMsFSTym6
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXX5Mmxl0at
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCf1zO8CxEv
眼影太深了嗎？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmdxcHycYy
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底妝太飽和了嗎？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET2yU7ysWe
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqaOFMl5Dw
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjUhXUnnn1
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQtzqN5jG9
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp170BwlVYc
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXk3LDZJWRi
砰8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwjPZTinYu
哐8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAegz9tMQfG
⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7ByWsMJ5x
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「這件怎麼樣？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oBlwVA7ow
我搖搖頭。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSwpQVsFVH
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIfsTrhGte
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnHoN4vtwi
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuk3D4zbWh
我搖搖頭。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3nG4rxhI3
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYf6x52WG6q
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxB23f8jcR
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWyqOaIKm4
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHRF95NiUG
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Vo5P1znY0
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJbaPh7h1X
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnr5j0xbl8S
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2oiThueGG
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5qN3lSEOY
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ3N6YAUJb
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImaQo3MKOQ
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZciuFq8NYu
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sUs6qSKa6
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjLY6enpGI
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哐啷！8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5SHipTXe7
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUdrnBVcg2
不，不是你。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5ooptaS16
不是你⋯8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4C49AtEbm
不是你⋯⋯8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZDaxoxD2N
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykCaT8M0NJ
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR5JDUSJvS
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1M5XVm4JI
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrl6iO4lg8
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1xJNsoRTs
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呼吸8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oDUKtmRrU
越來越急促8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs36sfqmR7a
就是8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVf7cRiEF8
現在！8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqZwWf6Buf
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw69aNQxvo
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⋯鬧鐘響了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1wDTAQLQ6
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2Z22sFvM9
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我們四目相交。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNx6Yj22bs
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「該吃藥了。」我說。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutTZZnVNV5
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn5KGFBZJI
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysbcQv3qf8
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2avZ2A8Anr
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdBlczZ9FM
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGW3OhWzso
她應該也這麼覺得。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTTba2CiBL
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzosusIXe3w
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm5Vdt7h5d
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZK8btGpCE
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOs0iUKDHwT
「不用難過。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TKFoMJxSi
不用生氣。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZeNjDw6jV
不用委屈。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyqZW00SPV
不用憤慨。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNO2OqBuNlz
今天又是美好的一天。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBEgoVA6iS
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