As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4jlShD50L
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQbEoobh0h
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBvw6VBegx
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2i77Bu88Q
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYou1BzWAOW
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75BKG7k4IZ
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkC9ogmbfyc
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORSPxb9GVx
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPU6EFR7Zc
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT05dnx4Z7H
Knives917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkgTuOc51p
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnz4923Wa7e
'Uselessness'917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzqwERqhsz
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDHJFW8VQd
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXHZzovskg
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5fezaOc4U
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYRd6Yaus4
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnUAMKlOlX
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAJtZ5qdLx
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuik1LoNaJ1
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡti0ARfePfi
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ExGotF1cV
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MX210Buld
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6tXIjwO7F
And with that, I ran. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCFMJnsbMb
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt2tgYwSM0
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxJlEUQHXJ
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeY7w6bVwF2
See you next time!917Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0F2GH8NN2
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