As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIOzvuqR00
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOq1uN8RXPU
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgwCuPaUBU
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNuyV5DGP1
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkLQAtcPSe
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAghVQKitr
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvSkoup7TI
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy40FzZuFDg
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqdP5KsH0L
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutRAJKKCLN
Knives983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgBfKfrxhB
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEyVXd7X2d
'Uselessness'983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AnKXiNauf
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvMO9CRMFK
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkY5AgeZUF
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzfhxzk1nk
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDgox1PUme
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBDDJnGzFB
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZOHNaju8E
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBze4NxE98N
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAffcDrtLT
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFZf4PTjPy
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SalfjBZF1
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98Iui9RXSe
And with that, I ran. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg6cuMyagP
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHGM6E7RVq
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4TKyV2ZIR
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLI9YQYghZf
See you next time!983Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfAlPLox1A
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