You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbd9P9EbSEV
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSv4i7oRfXG
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdK3vKzrFl
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg8hLxNM8b
"I just want to go home," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskQdQzGcjN
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7k7hDWMVn
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPyUXXUK5O
Father sighs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksVfeuTYwZ
I say "I don't want to stay here!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmPFMnD1of
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9d11JE6Oc
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AAjgTbvaq
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHZGX9Lew1
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQfjK0is0R
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6lNfi8vMj
"Pet, come down from the tree."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgV68mregz
I stay silent.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI2RIuB0K1
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tbOJnxwFl
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXUhtWma9z
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRxVgTCndY
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08MhBbLImP
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R5tGUjzt0
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3re0BT2hc
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHDNEWhu8R
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdoHxg8BkD
I say, "Please don't hurt me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x5iLr3ilO
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstpGvzE6TF
I say, "Please don't!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1x6ZWXviH
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2LsZcuhTI
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5QQ2et8KI
"You'll find out soon enough, child."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnhDtjOk15
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CPS6u6vsq
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VGOEeFrdZ
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6pSKjaJp5
"Are you ready, child?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40TQz9Sp5F
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp0HXXu4xK
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIFAvxkSb1
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I say, "Okay.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySB1dwFGQk
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQxUVua6Cj
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvRgiCxRcW
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s6TAhpt5M
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwQ2EAWh2u
Father says "Good. Stay there."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgT7gLJcoE
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhw7IqsxIM
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvsJ6tIvIm
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUR3gmp1hZ
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrd2cQYynS
"Please!" I whisper.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhF7lbEyyS
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLUC8OPBRc
I scream loudly.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBA130dY7Z
My scream echoes throughout the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcQ5BoozqD
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq740edRBfU
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOZq17n008
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdT3xy56v11
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr0drzmneM
I say "P-please s-stop.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFbzwf2vAB
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLr0NMc48o
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQ8d8hSs7i
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwLZMky5gM
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUG5TEiGtz8
"Look at her," another says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32Pu2Cm2Vp
I say "Please leave me alone."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv28PdP4bBZ
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bhb1cUHiv
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCM2QMtQqnD
"We'll see. Let's see."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6G43Jwiil
I say "No no no.." They laugh.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Fg69Ls6b
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4siDHXsjJ
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI63o8K45u
They untie me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqhZAKZxXy
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWlSIn1EDj
"Ah... you're up," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GLLJv7Bau
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW4639O3YE
"Where were you?" he asks,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6jpIhbTeK
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDjudbCegn
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6sKqCIkX9
Father smiles.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAQiH6oYxV
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvRlOO6CLn
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSltJOHBpka
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRTXdFXD6l
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jnKVM84OU
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyVdwLucHY
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySmUDEYxg3
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAPRXwyGvS
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADIzgVgKaO
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzQ9KqD78P
I say, "Please let me go!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmnzsbwJHp
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR8PllYZcz
"You will," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W2R1RuESJ
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjN1UhC0Km
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxtCQGKi7V
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeKgfMJB9q
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyLLaxWspC
"Stop crying," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n5KZPXKuc
"I can't!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPH5P2J6F4
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEns51FC5r
"Stop it!" I cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2lrrd65Do
"I said stop it!" he yells,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9RM8HlT2L
"I can't," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlsusGhqg7
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0G8mNc79f
"NO!" Father screams.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qN9RownTk
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjf62bGg9h
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlnrQ28HzQ
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYwGnJHIAh
"I would. I really would."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxIrppG4OX
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OoS2wYjLF
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1QAU3DpOZ
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiqtpMyv0w
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWVFS8oFjt
I say, "No I'm not!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IWMmN7iuT
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25ArwluC8X
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGr64IfeTqA
I say "No I won't!!!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFJtzphrlA
"You will!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvT4Y4lgJo
"I said NO!!!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGDkiUn1MF
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIuFBAE4Ra
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9QbKFEsut
"I know you will," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyxObMIBMo
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwG8tWRann
He says "One."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y53EyhCSQ
I say, "I'll do anything.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlYgMxkr5d
"Two."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtHCVrcTuB
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ6DaYXnul
"Three."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7GDjD2bVY
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXFqCg96SV
"No, don't do it," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWQlQGSAB6
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz59v8UaNCM
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE5xa0So1d
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxFATmby0T
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dx1g91Rim
I say "Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxjzAWWFMY
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnUFr4acCm
"Yes," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEMM7wVO3g
"Good girl," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VhwdyBHmb
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUmO7lYHRJ
"I won't," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLvtVnSXZ7
I stay tied up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKFb7Kefw6
"Now," he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDdAUEvoid
"Kneel."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsH1co4u4b
"Please," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SpFvWzRCO
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuffNYdswt
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa30FqEUC0D
I just know it.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiKLUGra0g
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4ciEeBSqE
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWdE13DO2V
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRX8vN3UKF
I'm all alone in the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14T600TLPv
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I hear the door open. I look up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVySV5utkn
"Hello," a man says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjk1GhfTM0C
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Q343GVc6Q
"Hands behind your back," he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLX2z2QYfW
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtmqGqrtg4
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCKwwYQeGj
"Stay there," he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUZCggYhPI
I stay on my knees.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA78QC2yPDV
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUQCc7fTqG
I say "No no no."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4pCQCEgmk
"Do it," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstVjlHt0TE
I say no. He pushes harder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0ZH2iK0QJ
"Do it!" he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPewAL6mgl
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6F502qaugO
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4omJmM3aoV
"Stay there," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6RlebtYR8
I stay on my knees.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94AOzBnu6J
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMq632jAFOW
"Stop moving."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfzG11Osn1
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZNnpCxhAm
He pulls it out of my throat.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ203NjDKcn
"What's wrong?" he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwPPR3drvH
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K3WkOOKue
"What?" he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7C3kTShmt
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FBPp9ppx1
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlEgx5AwLM
"Is this too big for you?" he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTSNw35pVX
I nod.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzrXXc52VJ
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbViqsv8KC
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxhCDJjDMR
He shoves it back in.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyFeH5aGco
I decide that vomiting once is enough.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIxqfllts6
He shoves it in deeper.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkELujeSXRc
I struggle and fight.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuw6qTtw9x
"Stop fighting me," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsekc8UxRgi
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0Z2shuaZR
"Get dressed," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TrOD0CjDH
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklByF6zgK3
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiuzM5W56k
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgLv0LmRCi
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDzxS7xWVo
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeKCqehzsq
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96MYpE1uR4
I say, "Where's dad?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1UpiF3yU0
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlz1RaGEsh
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OeFKt9Pic
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCfYxaugZJ
My father says, "Where have you been?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpt2DgdHYv
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsier7v3jA4
"Did they hurt you?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpD789ibSG
"Yeah," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYp0BaJr8lO
"I'm sorry."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYtk2xldZM
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfQSi3vJWW
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIRnuuz3iu
"Is Allie in here?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi8cMtIZvc
My dad says, "Yes, why?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzWLEzVvjS
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG016TLZRf
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZFFYE2uZb
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPB5MwIFUt
"No." I respond,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjI5sQC2l3v
"Can we come in?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJovH97ogk
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6TDL0yEZF
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZQghtA8vB
I say, "I don't know."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLwuDna9N4
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXGuIZ8fNk
"No." I say,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnIRHHk29U
"Are you sure?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58Zv95bVgZ
"Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zRkWzH15y
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbKXaSslFV
"Did he give you any food or water?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9kIMZiUW3
"No." I respond.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuBI71Iqf2
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBUInzd7sF
"No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0hj2TLhLz
"What did he do to you?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh77fdepBY4
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokRZn5uKAx
"Did you fight him?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtWARj31aZ
"I tried."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbzE1VOwEY
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaBOBkg7Nd
"I think I blacked out."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx0fihvvPf
"I see."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97xZSYYR76
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsznnD7uZu
"And how long were you with him?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XowVagiFx
"I think about ten hours."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQfViOhHtQ
"And you only just managed to escape?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhxeKjWdFc
"Yeah."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80TkS0Lb5W
"Do you know where you were?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQ6mWoUMr1
I say "No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRQDCXv2q0
"What is the last thing you remember?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYIJnCW5sP
"I remember walking down the road."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ojh6yIDcY
"And then?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXiLR0r4k1
"I don't remember."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbWMe1lt9b
"Do you know how you got away?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvtf101lUY
I say, "I just ran,"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhryDLM1TP
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztIRfIuUab
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnKiYStF6f
I say, "So that's how it all happened."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW12OKzttw
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQOyq2lBy6
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCRAyLWp1h
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEpwM0ILee
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjpjniTH6E
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLvXuD7VyJ
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgBvvd2k68
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIerJWZFRyb
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1t55dWlbO
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXhUcOXWq8
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SmU2mESHm
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAL3WC4KeU
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bvoYDM5MA
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfuiuMUFfS
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTonAeSR7P
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOoLUrPbn8W
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4cjuMoRKN
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV0PV5hRhy
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK46DoIGyJ2
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsfiX5Zf3u
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZbJhzlqgc
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GW5AXgCFs
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N63OeydKt
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R1rtNdQVC
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DOK6W2wAH
"Get up." he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTt46Hkg6J
"Why am I here?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKEktms9cw
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90OZfAY622
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKxqgnq0DQ
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWIxmqp5uG
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitEDyuUzWd
I sit down.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalh2mBKZfC
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpza5ey8Wr
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5LPYPuUNH
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS5GjlTMvx
I say, "No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OvpdwH0bb
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUg9VZZ3HA
I respond, "Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcBPC27aPc
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNLG4nkOza
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19CabRAGvo
"Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwg6TyS4yv
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8U0lGGVLi
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHAbGQoutK
I say, "Hi."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZTDLRzWPU
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0CJlZI56W
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLmKQRYDfL
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUVr1zrrU
"Right away," says the woman.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RqzIUlSH6
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vXsT8sIMB
I say, "Okay."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLauXqFpcJY
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwBmBwlsU1
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx84szJxXRi
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJLsOsLPYq
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohTE7SrjHb
"He kidnapped me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3SoNM5i8e
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMhAQQ17aQ
I say, "He tried to stab me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsft5K5o5Hk
"Who was he?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AwTn4dd7e
"I don't know."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMO8lYxSpPF
"Where did you get the knife?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3M5TVDP65
"He had it in his pocket."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCKNBY6ejv
"Did he threaten you in any way?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2fKK5OLB6
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk9OEOkhy1
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fEzcDBBQP
"No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwx26ToXcj
"You sure? Think hard."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA5jm2PRQJ
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3HCc9i3jx
I say, "He killed my father."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQbnVDuWcG
"What?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnfLRjQFPC
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBIZGHw4J2
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljAwK9G2oz
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGfW7uxhGT
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqJny0t4Lp
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGTPlOi6TW
I say, "Okay.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RnUPPKG0c
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlNCg1B0BV
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUNys12Es0
I follow him.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v2avO9ayA
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IGVEYrhAn
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AE2r99Zrb
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuDP22VSk8
"Alright. Take a seat."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohtaW9EcPC
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oUhrFdcqQ
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSjyNoflRL
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjY7kZ2aRu
"Yes.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIvon5QzoJ
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEU0rq1sUK
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rNG2rEC7H
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHrckgesgO
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbTkTaviR7
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJj3DZI1nf
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFZlyiINHN
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIo6p5uzPp
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLEbfYpGVJ
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54KQPYMQSw
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2tkoSbbTD
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMtxyhgAhG
"What is it?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyAm7CyCh4
Doctor Kessel says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNIKCNQZkU
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m1fl6OaHf
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu57QOSxD8x
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZZEKyOtNc
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWXcwQuIVA
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOMZWQxg4N
The nurse shakes her head, and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp7ARJGW1K
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnMT7cNXyh
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfGm2Odj0n
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKkEIdLm4K
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvRL7f8TR1
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQyPQHjyN2
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZskarXJFw
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAe323BrQK
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oHYufYwsQ
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dm1y2LThn
I say "Where am I?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEnJphcAqb
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsXoflPJ84
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQmNt7oIgv
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnCRp1W7hw
I say, "I want to see my mom..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWwgC6FqRa
The nurse interrupts me and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf6c6YNLLI
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ezFBQ0FPq
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBVetE3eOZ
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMiDW3j9fu
"M-mom.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2yg8HdKDU
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ31J8QOnV
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wEDOa6jOz
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FedaA05JG
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxZjWfwnty
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhJKnjxU6j
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFAPNLp4jz
"Yes.." I say quietly.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV3DMMMhzj
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGES8ANqWp
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKUPfIEITD
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCL8Sqltis
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3z17wt3qw
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡealaHWrgON
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh04JxPtTR
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlqlxN8r4T
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wLo1quLgh
I say, "Okay.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeC79i01KAe
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgLP84fmfz
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMaYDqJP2U
I wipe the tears off my face.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLGzMLU80t
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9Pv5Wlf4N
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRbHXzPcZl
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdhxdP6KvQ
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayVWQL8yam
I say, "Tell me!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjjxvES3im
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NWiEY4YVT
My heart drops.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4a4MrgU4Y
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8p2bOncQs
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In the morning, I get my visitors.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtEBCri0MM
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7dVe8bvTa
I say, "Wait!" She stops.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JlyNnBziV
"What is it?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA21SiLY4E4
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET9xZmNLmG
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPUjMBCAYi
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBnqgP95Ij
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNltCXpDvvq
I cry myself to sleep.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4mJefOjij
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf5IiNPfQ6
"How are you doing, honey?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhAQCR5c7E
I say, "Horrible.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEwJPLsgP9
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjZgb9cpS3
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0731wW4Pv
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeZNioDzUo
"It's not your fault, honey."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlfXOxfpyo
I start crying again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhO6OPDhJ94
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzxbjU2emd
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wtsiX3i5Z
Maybe I'm dead after all.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o5Xni7Ohj
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxY9cwLeKZ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFhW79wP9c
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEP6tJTkFEc
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukIiRhwgNa
I say, "I still want to win this."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb78gyPBMPt
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgR4JxRzz9
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik8jdOYTxJ
"Really?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVV8R4HBVr0
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMkZEbjjgQ
I start crying, and I can't stop.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOp3ZfGyH4
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKEHd4VnKh
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDw7xCSkfK
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJsUgUglvT
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOg3HRbmKpf
"I wanted to see the flowers."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAs2LiYzEA
"Why are you out of your room?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM434jqoBy
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3YPxQOBog
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxs1cfcjAJ
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4qB8QEJuV
"Thank you for being you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mnExON2CC
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoql8XFcNh
I make a decision.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXITkh5ZEXE
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuRLqkYMPg
"What's your name?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdvys8i3xE
"Allisa," I say, smiling.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8dQMgriak
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOKyEQn6VH
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNK5pWy1ED
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W0nYZuhPv
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eaIiIkquh
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSv4i7oRfXG
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdK3vKzrFl
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg8hLxNM8b
"I just want to go home," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskQdQzGcjN
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7k7hDWMVn
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPyUXXUK5O
Father sighs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksVfeuTYwZ
I say "I don't want to stay here!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmPFMnD1of
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9d11JE6Oc
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AAjgTbvaq
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHZGX9Lew1
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQfjK0is0R
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6lNfi8vMj
"Pet, come down from the tree."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgV68mregz
I stay silent.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI2RIuB0K1
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tbOJnxwFl
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXUhtWma9z
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRxVgTCndY
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08MhBbLImP
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R5tGUjzt0
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3re0BT2hc
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHDNEWhu8R
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdoHxg8BkD
I say, "Please don't hurt me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x5iLr3ilO
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstpGvzE6TF
I say, "Please don't!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1x6ZWXviH
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2LsZcuhTI
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5QQ2et8KI
"You'll find out soon enough, child."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnhDtjOk15
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CPS6u6vsq
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VGOEeFrdZ
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"Are you ready, child?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40TQz9Sp5F
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp0HXXu4xK
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIFAvxkSb1
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I say, "Okay.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySB1dwFGQk
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQxUVua6Cj
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvRgiCxRcW
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s6TAhpt5M
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwQ2EAWh2u
Father says "Good. Stay there."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgT7gLJcoE
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhw7IqsxIM
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvsJ6tIvIm
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUR3gmp1hZ
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrd2cQYynS
"Please!" I whisper.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhF7lbEyyS
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLUC8OPBRc
I scream loudly.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBA130dY7Z
My scream echoes throughout the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcQ5BoozqD
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq740edRBfU
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOZq17n008
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdT3xy56v11
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr0drzmneM
I say "P-please s-stop.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFbzwf2vAB
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLr0NMc48o
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQ8d8hSs7i
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwLZMky5gM
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUG5TEiGtz8
"Look at her," another says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32Pu2Cm2Vp
I say "Please leave me alone."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv28PdP4bBZ
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bhb1cUHiv
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCM2QMtQqnD
"We'll see. Let's see."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6G43Jwiil
I say "No no no.." They laugh.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Fg69Ls6b
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4siDHXsjJ
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI63o8K45u
They untie me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqhZAKZxXy
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWlSIn1EDj
"Ah... you're up," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GLLJv7Bau
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173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWtO4U5NTb"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW4639O3YE
"Where were you?" he asks,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6jpIhbTeK
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDjudbCegn
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6sKqCIkX9
Father smiles.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAQiH6oYxV
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvRlOO6CLn
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSltJOHBpka
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRTXdFXD6l
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jnKVM84OU
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyVdwLucHY
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySmUDEYxg3
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAPRXwyGvS
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADIzgVgKaO
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzQ9KqD78P
I say, "Please let me go!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmnzsbwJHp
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR8PllYZcz
"You will," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W2R1RuESJ
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjN1UhC0Km
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxtCQGKi7V
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeKgfMJB9q
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyLLaxWspC
"Stop crying," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n5KZPXKuc
"I can't!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPH5P2J6F4
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEns51FC5r
"Stop it!" I cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2lrrd65Do
"I said stop it!" he yells,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9RM8HlT2L
"I can't," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlsusGhqg7
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0G8mNc79f
"NO!" Father screams.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qN9RownTk
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjf62bGg9h
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlnrQ28HzQ
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYwGnJHIAh
"I would. I really would."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxIrppG4OX
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OoS2wYjLF
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1QAU3DpOZ
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiqtpMyv0w
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWVFS8oFjt
I say, "No I'm not!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IWMmN7iuT
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25ArwluC8X
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGr64IfeTqA
I say "No I won't!!!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFJtzphrlA
"You will!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvT4Y4lgJo
"I said NO!!!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGDkiUn1MF
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIuFBAE4Ra
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9QbKFEsut
"I know you will," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyxObMIBMo
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwG8tWRann
He says "One."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y53EyhCSQ
I say, "I'll do anything.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlYgMxkr5d
"Two."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtHCVrcTuB
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ6DaYXnul
"Three."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7GDjD2bVY
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXFqCg96SV
"No, don't do it," Father says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWQlQGSAB6
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz59v8UaNCM
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE5xa0So1d
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxFATmby0T
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dx1g91Rim
I say "Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxjzAWWFMY
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnUFr4acCm
"Yes," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEMM7wVO3g
"Good girl," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VhwdyBHmb
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUmO7lYHRJ
"I won't," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLvtVnSXZ7
I stay tied up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKFb7Kefw6
"Now," he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDdAUEvoid
"Kneel."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsH1co4u4b
"Please," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SpFvWzRCO
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuffNYdswt
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa30FqEUC0D
I just know it.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiKLUGra0g
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4ciEeBSqE
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWdE13DO2V
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRX8vN3UKF
I'm all alone in the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14T600TLPv
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173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZLVrnxx9xI hear the door open. I look up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVySV5utkn
"Hello," a man says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjk1GhfTM0C
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Q343GVc6Q
"Hands behind your back," he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLX2z2QYfW
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtmqGqrtg4
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCKwwYQeGj
"Stay there," he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUZCggYhPI
I stay on my knees.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA78QC2yPDV
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUQCc7fTqG
I say "No no no."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4pCQCEgmk
"Do it," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstVjlHt0TE
I say no. He pushes harder.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0ZH2iK0QJ
"Do it!" he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPewAL6mgl
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6F502qaugO
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4omJmM3aoV
"Stay there," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6RlebtYR8
I stay on my knees.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94AOzBnu6J
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMq632jAFOW
"Stop moving."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfzG11Osn1
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZNnpCxhAm
He pulls it out of my throat.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ203NjDKcn
"What's wrong?" he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwPPR3drvH
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K3WkOOKue
"What?" he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7C3kTShmt
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FBPp9ppx1
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlEgx5AwLM
"Is this too big for you?" he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTSNw35pVX
I nod.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzrXXc52VJ
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbViqsv8KC
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxhCDJjDMR
He shoves it back in.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyFeH5aGco
I decide that vomiting once is enough.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIxqfllts6
He shoves it in deeper.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkELujeSXRc
I struggle and fight.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuw6qTtw9x
"Stop fighting me," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsekc8UxRgi
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0Z2shuaZR
"Get dressed," he says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TrOD0CjDH
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklByF6zgK3
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiuzM5W56k
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgLv0LmRCi
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDzxS7xWVo
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeKCqehzsq
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96MYpE1uR4
I say, "Where's dad?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1UpiF3yU0
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlz1RaGEsh
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OeFKt9Pic
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCfYxaugZJ
My father says, "Where have you been?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpt2DgdHYv
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsier7v3jA4
"Did they hurt you?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpD789ibSG
"Yeah," I say.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYp0BaJr8lO
"I'm sorry."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYtk2xldZM
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfQSi3vJWW
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIRnuuz3iu
"Is Allie in here?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi8cMtIZvc
My dad says, "Yes, why?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzWLEzVvjS
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG016TLZRf
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZFFYE2uZb
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPB5MwIFUt
"No." I respond,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjI5sQC2l3v
"Can we come in?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJovH97ogk
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6TDL0yEZF
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZQghtA8vB
I say, "I don't know."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLwuDna9N4
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXGuIZ8fNk
"No." I say,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnIRHHk29U
"Are you sure?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58Zv95bVgZ
"Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zRkWzH15y
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbKXaSslFV
"Did he give you any food or water?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9kIMZiUW3
"No." I respond.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuBI71Iqf2
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBUInzd7sF
"No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0hj2TLhLz
"What did he do to you?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh77fdepBY4
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokRZn5uKAx
"Did you fight him?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtWARj31aZ
"I tried."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbzE1VOwEY
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaBOBkg7Nd
"I think I blacked out."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx0fihvvPf
"I see."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97xZSYYR76
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsznnD7uZu
"And how long were you with him?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XowVagiFx
"I think about ten hours."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQfViOhHtQ
"And you only just managed to escape?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhxeKjWdFc
"Yeah."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80TkS0Lb5W
"Do you know where you were?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQ6mWoUMr1
I say "No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRQDCXv2q0
"What is the last thing you remember?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYIJnCW5sP
"I remember walking down the road."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ojh6yIDcY
"And then?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXiLR0r4k1
"I don't remember."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbWMe1lt9b
"Do you know how you got away?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvtf101lUY
I say, "I just ran,"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhryDLM1TP
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztIRfIuUab
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnKiYStF6f
I say, "So that's how it all happened."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW12OKzttw
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQOyq2lBy6
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCRAyLWp1h
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEpwM0ILee
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjpjniTH6E
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLvXuD7VyJ
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgBvvd2k68
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIerJWZFRyb
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1t55dWlbO
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXhUcOXWq8
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SmU2mESHm
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAL3WC4KeU
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bvoYDM5MA
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfuiuMUFfS
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTonAeSR7P
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOoLUrPbn8W
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4cjuMoRKN
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173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHe5yjJqTMAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV0PV5hRhy
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK46DoIGyJ2
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsfiX5Zf3u
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZbJhzlqgc
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GW5AXgCFs
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N63OeydKt
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R1rtNdQVC
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DOK6W2wAH
"Get up." he says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTt46Hkg6J
"Why am I here?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKEktms9cw
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90OZfAY622
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKxqgnq0DQ
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWIxmqp5uG
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitEDyuUzWd
I sit down.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalh2mBKZfC
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpza5ey8Wr
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5LPYPuUNH
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS5GjlTMvx
I say, "No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OvpdwH0bb
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUg9VZZ3HA
I respond, "Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcBPC27aPc
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNLG4nkOza
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19CabRAGvo
"Yes."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwg6TyS4yv
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8U0lGGVLi
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHAbGQoutK
I say, "Hi."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZTDLRzWPU
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0CJlZI56W
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLmKQRYDfL
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUVr1zrrU
"Right away," says the woman.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RqzIUlSH6
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vXsT8sIMB
I say, "Okay."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLauXqFpcJY
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwBmBwlsU1
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx84szJxXRi
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJLsOsLPYq
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohTE7SrjHb
"He kidnapped me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3SoNM5i8e
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMhAQQ17aQ
I say, "He tried to stab me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsft5K5o5Hk
"Who was he?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AwTn4dd7e
"I don't know."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMO8lYxSpPF
"Where did you get the knife?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3M5TVDP65
"He had it in his pocket."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCKNBY6ejv
"Did he threaten you in any way?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2fKK5OLB6
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk9OEOkhy1
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fEzcDBBQP
"No."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwx26ToXcj
"You sure? Think hard."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA5jm2PRQJ
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3HCc9i3jx
I say, "He killed my father."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQbnVDuWcG
"What?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnfLRjQFPC
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBIZGHw4J2
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljAwK9G2oz
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGfW7uxhGT
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqJny0t4Lp
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGTPlOi6TW
I say, "Okay.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RnUPPKG0c
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlNCg1B0BV
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUNys12Es0
I follow him.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v2avO9ayA
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IGVEYrhAn
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AE2r99Zrb
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuDP22VSk8
"Alright. Take a seat."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohtaW9EcPC
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oUhrFdcqQ
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSjyNoflRL
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjY7kZ2aRu
"Yes.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIvon5QzoJ
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEU0rq1sUK
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rNG2rEC7H
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHrckgesgO
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbTkTaviR7
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJj3DZI1nf
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFZlyiINHN
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIo6p5uzPp
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLEbfYpGVJ
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54KQPYMQSw
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2tkoSbbTD
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMtxyhgAhG
"What is it?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyAm7CyCh4
Doctor Kessel says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNIKCNQZkU
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m1fl6OaHf
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu57QOSxD8x
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZZEKyOtNc
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWXcwQuIVA
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOMZWQxg4N
The nurse shakes her head, and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp7ARJGW1K
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnMT7cNXyh
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfGm2Odj0n
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKkEIdLm4K
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvRL7f8TR1
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQyPQHjyN2
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZskarXJFw
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAe323BrQK
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oHYufYwsQ
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dm1y2LThn
I say "Where am I?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEnJphcAqb
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsXoflPJ84
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQmNt7oIgv
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnCRp1W7hw
I say, "I want to see my mom..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWwgC6FqRa
The nurse interrupts me and says,173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf6c6YNLLI
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ezFBQ0FPq
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBVetE3eOZ
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173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpTYlr8gVDA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMiDW3j9fu
"M-mom.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2yg8HdKDU
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ31J8QOnV
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wEDOa6jOz
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FedaA05JG
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxZjWfwnty
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhJKnjxU6j
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFAPNLp4jz
"Yes.." I say quietly.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV3DMMMhzj
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGES8ANqWp
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKUPfIEITD
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCL8Sqltis
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3z17wt3qw
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡealaHWrgON
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh04JxPtTR
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlqlxN8r4T
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wLo1quLgh
I say, "Okay.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeC79i01KAe
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgLP84fmfz
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMaYDqJP2U
I wipe the tears off my face.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLGzMLU80t
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9Pv5Wlf4N
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRbHXzPcZl
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdhxdP6KvQ
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayVWQL8yam
I say, "Tell me!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjjxvES3im
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NWiEY4YVT
My heart drops.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4a4MrgU4Y
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8p2bOncQs
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173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7Cjb9XldXIn the morning, I get my visitors.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtEBCri0MM
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7dVe8bvTa
I say, "Wait!" She stops.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JlyNnBziV
"What is it?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA21SiLY4E4
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET9xZmNLmG
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPUjMBCAYi
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBnqgP95Ij
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNltCXpDvvq
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The next day, I get another visit from my mom.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf5IiNPfQ6
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I say, "Horrible.."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEwJPLsgP9
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjZgb9cpS3
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0731wW4Pv
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeZNioDzUo
"It's not your fault, honey."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlfXOxfpyo
I start crying again.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhO6OPDhJ94
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzxbjU2emd
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wtsiX3i5Z
Maybe I'm dead after all.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o5Xni7Ohj
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxY9cwLeKZ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFhW79wP9c
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEP6tJTkFEc
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukIiRhwgNa
I say, "I still want to win this."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb78gyPBMPt
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgR4JxRzz9
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik8jdOYTxJ
"Really?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVV8R4HBVr0
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMkZEbjjgQ
I start crying, and I can't stop.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOp3ZfGyH4
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKEHd4VnKh
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDw7xCSkfK
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJsUgUglvT
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOg3HRbmKpf
"I wanted to see the flowers."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAs2LiYzEA
"Why are you out of your room?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM434jqoBy
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3YPxQOBog
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxs1cfcjAJ
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4qB8QEJuV
"Thank you for being you."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mnExON2CC
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoql8XFcNh
I make a decision.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXITkh5ZEXE
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuRLqkYMPg
"What's your name?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdvys8i3xE
"Allisa," I say, smiling.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8dQMgriak
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOKyEQn6VH
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNK5pWy1ED
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W0nYZuhPv
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eaIiIkquh
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