清晨,我緩緩張開雙眼,之後就睡不著了。於是,輕輕從床上爬起,深怕吵醒身邊的丈夫,躡手躡腳的走向陽臺外。雖然太陽已有露出半張臉,但,早晨的低溫還是讓我不自覺的打了個冷顫。256Please respect copyright.PENANAQIBvTZFwXC
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看向不遠處,有一幢已燒毀的舊房,讓我不禁陷入回憶的漩渦中……。256Please respect copyright.PENANA3oAWzzIaDb
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「都是妳不好,害死妳爸爸、哥哥,妳這個掃把星……。」我的媽媽緊緊扣住我的肩膀,大力的搖晃著我。256Please respect copyright.PENANAxRq59LMIEv
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「媽,痛、好痛……。」力氣不夠大的我,無法反抗、更無力去掙扎,只能吃痛的說。256Please respect copyright.PENANAUw6qkY9sgh
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「誰是妳媽!我才不是妳媽!」我的媽媽歇斯底里地尖叫著,並突然放開手,我則重重跌坐在地上。256Please respect copyright.PENANAgN5ASWQWek
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「痛……。」我一時之間,因疼痛無法起身,我的媽媽就像沒事一樣,回到自己房間內。256Please respect copyright.PENANAGAwaaZX8ka
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爸爸與哥哥是在我十歲那年,不幸於一場車禍中雙雙喪命,痛失摯愛與愛子的媽媽,把所有的罪名扣在我身上,常常對我瘋狂的尖叫,傷害自己也藉由打我,來出氣。256Please respect copyright.PENANAyOvA7IcGmB
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小時候的我只能害怕的獨自哭泣,甚至有了輕生的念頭,直到遇到我的丈夫……。256Please respect copyright.PENANA8tl0s7dE7Y
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在國中那年,我一個人站在學校最高的頂樓上,強烈的風把瘦弱的我,吹得有些搖搖欲墜,但只想結束生命的我絲毫不在乎,直接往欄杆邊走去。256Please respect copyright.PENANA2l5cf4gVpP
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「這樣好嗎?跳下去,丟下一切,這樣不會太自私嗎?」突然有個男生的聲音響起。256Please respect copyright.PENANAoDaZf0jbSo
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「唯有結束,我才不會這麼痛苦。」我冷冷的轉過頭,看著出聲說話的人。256Please respect copyright.PENANA4ax05iw0Ah
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「那妳叫留下來的人,情何以堪呢?」男生慢慢向我走近。256Please respect copyright.PENANA0ir3WYTpc6
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「我媽媽才不會難過,她、她根本沒有在意過我……。」我把衣袖往上一拉,手臂上布滿許許多多瘀青與抓痕。256Please respect copyright.PENANAdnlQJqTSCA
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男生錯愕的看著我的傷,自動把音氣放溫柔,但仍不死心的對我勸說:「我,會幫妳的,相信我,過來這邊。」256Please respect copyright.PENANAphldV74Nri
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看見你眼底的心疼,我猶豫了,男生察覺到我的遲疑,立刻大力將我拉進你懷裡,感受到你真心的溫暖,我流下了淚水。256Please respect copyright.PENANAmhB9Nxz778
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男生之後並沒有多說什麼,就只是讓我盡情哭泣,把累積許久的委曲釋放出來。256Please respect copyright.PENANALixCEo6K3J
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等心情平復的差不多時,我就直接開口問:「你是誰?為何要幫我?」256Please respect copyright.PENANAcUfaUNWvtE
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「其實我們認識哦!只是妳忘了。」男生看著我,笑著回答。256Please respect copyright.PENANAhEO9M9EPEX
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看著我滿臉困惑,男生十分溺愛的揉揉我的頭。256Please respect copyright.PENANAHQeNhEW7cE
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「其實我的父親與妳爸爸相當友好,我們小時候還常玩在一起,妳爸爸在臨終前,有跟我父親交待,要多照顧妳們母女倆。」男生解釋著,讓我似乎有喚起一些記憶。256Please respect copyright.PENANAIERLlha1U7
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「只是,沒想到阿姨會這樣對妳……。」你看著我遺憾的說。256Please respect copyright.PENANAptTh6giOOJ
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「爸爸就是這麼溫柔,在怎麼樣也會掛念著我們。」聽到你的話後,我感動的笑了,這是在爸爸與哥哥逝世後,第一次真心的微笑。256Please respect copyright.PENANA3M09TnQbKv
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「所以,勇敢活下去,我會陪在妳身邊的,好嗎?」你牽起我的手,給我注入大量的勇氣。256Please respect copyright.PENANACBPoeEprk4
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「好!」我用力的點頭。256Please respect copyright.PENANASMaPHB8Rw3
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當年的男生,就是現在疼愛我的丈夫,他陪我走過許多風雨,鼓勵著我;因為有他,才讓我有繼續活下去的動力。256Please respect copyright.PENANAVy8HNzXa7w
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「哈!啾!」打了一個噴嚏,將我從回憶中拉回。256Please respect copyright.PENANAnKJPQUhULh
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「早上這麼冷,怎麼不多穿件衣服呢?」丈夫不知何時已經清醒,從後頭幫我披上一件外套,抓起我的雙手搓熱,給我溫暖。256Please respect copyright.PENANADCq3hbBGFT
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我笑著鑽入你懷裡,你沒輒的捏捏我鼻子說:「都這麼大年紀了,還那麼愛撒嬌。」256Please respect copyright.PENANA97gKiWpebC
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「沒辦法啊!誰叫你在那時救了我,我就只好賴定你了。」我頑皮的回答。256Please respect copyright.PENANA5vRmdVk0rs
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只是看著遠方原本的家,我想起媽媽在我出嫁前,為了不想拖累我,選擇在家裡放了場大火,將自己縱身於火海中,結束自己……。256Please respect copyright.PENANAq3PdrWfGq2
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其實,媽媽已有聽我勸說,去看身心科醫生接受治療,那陣子狀況改善不少。我總是在想,如果之前我有留意到,是否結果就會有所不同呢?256Please respect copyright.PENANARwkm9cnMGZ
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丈夫看著沉下臉的我,摟著我說:「我們無法改變過去,只能掌握未來,過去妳已盡了最大的力氣,就別去後悔了。」256Please respect copyright.PENANAlZ87YPTYIu
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「我知道了,謝謝你……。」我反過來緊緊抱著丈夫。256Please respect copyright.PENANABgbkfiAFCa
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媽媽,現在的妳是否正與爸爸、哥哥幸福的團聚呢?如果是,就真是太好了,請妳不用擔心女兒,現在的我,過得很好、很幸福!我會珍惜這得來不易的日子。256Please respect copyright.PENANA8mdKRbeL2I
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我在丈夫的懷裡,安心的閉上眼……。
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想試著寫些甜蜜卻帶點苦澀的味道……
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