我盯著牠,牠盯著我。不,也許牠盯著的是千千萬萬個我。生活往往充滿不確定,又有誰能肯定自己的命運?404Please respect copyright.PENANABwjjH0uq9M
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第三百一十二天,空氣中瀰漫著一股大雨留下來的餘味,少了雲遮擋的太陽早已直射地表。404Please respect copyright.PENANAGvCMgECv5l
叢林確實是分層發展的,上層肥大的傘狀樹葉大片大片地行著光合作用,中層接收著林冠漏接的5%陽光,蜥蜴鳥禽正趁天晴或活躍或覓食,而此時底層仍蒸著散不去的濕氣,幽暗陰影下的潮濕落葉發出陣陣腐味,那是一種原始的、不參雜質的崩解過程。404Please respect copyright.PENANAjx4k6AwPwj
我坐在石頭上,感受黏膩的苔癬一點一點浸溼我身上唯一的布料,前面是一棵油棕樹,肥大到看起來像一顆巨型鳳梨,片片堆疊的樹幹像古老的日本令牌,而我眼睛恰能直視的高度處,則釘著今天的祭品。404Please respect copyright.PENANAqLRGmCVjBn
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多美呀!404Please respect copyright.PENANAZLsgOylKlk
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牠綠色的金屬光澤,似盔甲般塊塊嵌在身上,靠頭的部分稍微偏咖啡色些,靠尾的部分則是翡綠色;翅膀是透明的,淺灰色勾勒出紋路;六隻骨節分明的腳各自彎曲或伸直,靠近頭的兩隻又比其他的短一些;牠眼睛很大,卻沒有任何反射,紅色的橢圓形像兩盆靜止的鮮血,濃稠而祥和。404Please respect copyright.PENANApmDAn8Nsw5
重點是毛。背部硬殼上排列整齊的比較長,水平指向尾端;尾端密密麻麻的是短毛,與接觸面垂直四散;翻過來腹部,短毛從身體分節處爆出,遠看還以為是條紋;眼睛周圍也有一圈似睫毛的,比背上的略顯稍短;而腳上,細細小小成倒鉤狀,整隻都是毛,多美。404Please respect copyright.PENANAglJngS0Tdp
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我輕輕拉直牠那捲起吸管狀的嘴,緩緩地、一微米一微米地,牠身體顫了下,伴隨著前腳的抽蓄,我繼續慢慢拉。404Please respect copyright.PENANAJK6iRQJhxC
接著是腳,我將牠腹部朝上放著,把合起的前腳打開,把縮著的後腳往後拉直。當然牠微微反抗地回到原本的姿勢,當然我也再一次動作,捏著兩根倒刺的中間向外拉。這次不知為何,牠彷彿預知了自己的死期,竟一動也不動任我擺布。404Please respect copyright.PENANAositJSrhgO
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空氣的組成中,此刻水蒸氣一定佔了不尋常的比重,我每一次吸氣都如站在淹到胸口的水裡,每一次呼氣都莫名沉重。像在還死不了的溺斃邊緣掙扎,生命被自然支配著,我微微張開嘴,期望能讓更多氧氣進到身體。404Please respect copyright.PENANAmz23vxMm0t
我盯著牠,牠盯著我。這時,我就像牠,牠就像我。生存著,殘存著。404Please respect copyright.PENANAXAwCpSIC0p
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牠腳又抽蓄了一下。
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頭頂忽然沙沙響,一群斑斕的鳥拍著翅膀飛走,雜亂地擦過那大片大片的肥嫩樹葉,稍早還未乾的雨滴紛紛被震得落下,陰暗的叢林底層又下了場小雨,香菇般霉味的雨,絲毫沒有太陽的光明希望味。404Please respect copyright.PENANAgljiNHMjeR
頭忽然愈來愈重,空氣忽然愈來愈膠著,我終於在闔眼前倒下,頭撞上石頭,碰。404Please respect copyright.PENANAoy9OR6RFSS
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「找了這麼久,終於除掉他了,這個叛逃的武士。」
「報告,代號fly已失去生命跡象。」
「埋伏在叢林裡這麼久,我都變野人了,總算達成任務。」404Please respect copyright.PENANAY4cIBSlkV5
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我盯著牠,牠盯著我。擺布著,被擺布著。
不,也許牠盯著的是千千萬萬個我,千千萬萬個最終死亡的我。
牠動了動飛走。生活往往充滿不確定,又有誰能肯定自己的命運?404Please respect copyright.PENANASJAG79BALo