張晨瑤不確定對吳丞希的「欣賞」是不是喜歡,在弄清想法前,她沒笨到對吳丞希說,我好像喜歡妳,但對也無法坦率說聲祝妳幸福。371Please respect copyright.PENANAuLA48kNcJm
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認識權恩後,有一種如釋重負的感覺,原來陷入這種狀態的不只她一個,至少還有人陪她一起傷心難過,不必再躲起來,面對紊亂的感情不知所措。371Please respect copyright.PENANAIjKZxXzTjw
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吳丞希前陣子因為車禍的關係,專輯發行日延後幾個月,距離上張韓文專輯過了兩年時間,歌迷早已等不及。張晨瑤初次隨著團隊到韓國,她只是個助理、不會韓文,去那裡完全起不了作用,這次公司美其名是工作,實際是讓台灣團隊放個假。371Please respect copyright.PENANAllqwItpMRe
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在韓國經紀公司的練習室裡,看見吳丞希、她的男朋友李俊秀和他的團員,還有明明是音樂製作人的權恩。身為戀人,吳丞希在公開場合對李俊秀一視同仁,總展現極高佔有慾的李俊秀也不會太放肆。371Please respect copyright.PENANA4yQiMu1bSz
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「嘿,兩個月不見。」張晨瑤走到權恩面前,打聲招呼,望向離她們不遠的吳丞希說:「我住台灣實在太好了。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAAac5vxF5tP
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「妳什麼意思啊……」371Please respect copyright.PENANAFwlUfmIPkf
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瞥向權恩苦著臉的模樣,她大笑幾聲,神秘兮兮的回答:「妳懂我懂就好。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAIiRsG9Zj75
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接收到對方的白眼,樂得無視她的哀怨,對吳丞希說自己去晃晃,比個手勢要權恩跟著一起出去。371Please respect copyright.PENANAhJ0IYsKTwT
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「我說妳,」離開公司、穿過歌迷,走在異鄉街頭,張晨瑤假裝不在意的問道:「是怎麼忍受剛才那些畫面,一點也不難過嗎?」371Please respect copyright.PENANAo2rPbTYVJZ
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權恩微微瞪大雙眼,嘴角露出一抹不明意義的笑,假裝思考的說:「難過什麼?這些都是改變不了的事實,就像妳我生下來是同性戀,丞希註定不會喜歡我們。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAPuRIlpWZU3
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「怎麼,看到丞希和男朋友在一起,覺得難過?」權恩挑著眉,嗤笑一聲:「別妄想了,我們誰也不是她的一輩子,頂多是一輩子的朋友。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAHjKJOMqnxj
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她沒有回答,沉默地跟著權恩到餐廳吃飯,她們一點都不尷尬,如同剛好坐在同一張桌子的陌生人,互相不揭穿彼此的瘡疤,欲言又止,最終還是什麼都沒說。371Please respect copyright.PENANAEof0HnpXyV
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打破現狀是權恩一個動作,她挑掉食物裡的青椒遞給張晨瑤,說:「吃吧,這盤沒有青椒。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAjvi5xJrbpD
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「妳怎麼知道我不吃青椒?」張晨瑤略顯訝異的接過盤子。371Please respect copyright.PENANAQS5WTbVAjF
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權恩拿筷子的手頓了一下,疑惑抬起頭反問:「妳難道不知道,剛剛看到青椒馬上苦著臉的模樣很明顯嗎?」371Please respect copyright.PENANATxkUqQqxur
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「真的?」張晨瑤摸摸臉,權恩無語的繼續吃飯。371Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9WFZ4guNV
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這時餐廳電視正好在播放吳丞希的歌曲,她們一同望向螢幕。371Please respect copyright.PENANAKR2o9hKZZA
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「我在想,要到哪一天才能真正忘了對她的感情,不是這種不明的狀態,而是純粹把她當妹妹。」張晨瑤深深的嘆息。371Please respect copyright.PENANARvUo99y7Pi
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她矛盾的想,希望這天趕快到,但也不希望把這段時間隱藏的「欣賞」輕易放掉,就像耗損的青春,一去不復返。371Please respect copyright.PENANAWr8bqDI7y4
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「但忘了又覺得可惜,是吧。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAC8eQQE7RqP
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「是啊,畢竟好幾年了。」371Please respect copyright.PENANACnqHZjHktH
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良久,權恩抬起頭提議:「吃飽飯去走走吧。」371Please respect copyright.PENANATpffuTmK3K
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張晨瑤見到有名的漢江,心裡有種莫名的興奮,但身旁的人說要帶她來,到達目的地卻一句話不說。371Please respect copyright.PENANA4qYPUivEYC
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「我跟丞希的第一次對話。」權恩走到一張椅子後方,手撐著椅背,雙眼似乎在回憶過去:「是在這裡。」371Please respect copyright.PENANA8JpLd3Y9hd
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權恩自顧自地說起兩人談話的時光。那時她還不是音樂製作人,僅僅是一個來首爾追夢的小小平民,對未來感到茫然,她甚至想過,反正音樂無法填飽現實生活,乾脆趁現在離開,以後也不會太難過,可是她捨不得,為夢想拼命努力過,突然變成一場空,多叫人失望。371Please respect copyright.PENANARrGI5OnUcv
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「當時丞希出道有段時間,我根本沒想過她會坐在這裡,一看到我,立刻點破我的心事,被一個比自己小的人安慰和教訓,有點丟臉,不過我不後悔。」權恩抿著嘴笑了起來:「如果她當時沒戳破盲點,我也不會站在這裡。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAN3Xf5vCxyT
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張晨瑤走到她身旁,盯著她一臉懷念的樣子,突然說不出話,她並不像權恩一樣有野心,當時無意間得到一份工作,能發揮所長就滿足。371Please respect copyright.PENANAGlyPXf6Yl4
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在夢想面前,人都顯得卑微。371Please respect copyright.PENANA1S3pGmxe3P
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「換妳了。」權恩勾起一抹壞笑,似是達成目的般,向她挑釁的挑眉。371Please respect copyright.PENANACegNPqM6PI
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她不甘示弱,立刻說起第一次見面、日後的相處與破冰的那天,權恩聽得認真,忍俊不禁:「很像她會做的事。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAvZ4y6AUF85
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「我也說完了,換我問個問題。」張晨瑤報復性的問:「什麼時候喜歡她的?」371Please respect copyright.PENANAnSSdDmsFsd
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「喜歡什麼的……」權恩皺起眉頭,神情略為古怪的說:「啊,好像是我進公司的第一天,她答應唱一首我的Demo,大概是那時候喜歡上的。」371Please respect copyright.PENANA4cNxtnRrCI
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「妳呢?是在破冰當天嗎?」371Please respect copyright.PENANAc3BvitMX0l
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張晨瑤略顯詫異,反問她怎麼知道,權恩搖搖頭無奈地笑,並用手指敲敲自己的腦袋說:「一種直覺。」371Please respect copyright.PENANA8Wtxf60ndE
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「什麼啊。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAPPd3MOFgUC
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兩人站在原地聊了一、兩個小時,從吳丞希聊到生活小事,張晨瑤發現,權恩有意無意避開某些話題,她沒多說什麼,順著笑扯開話題。每個人都有弱點與不願讓人知道的地方,身為朋友,她還是懂得避重就輕,什麼該說什麼不該問。371Please respect copyright.PENANAUGZYph9go5
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等她們各自解散之際,權恩搖搖手機:「存什麼名字?」371Please respect copyright.PENANAXIw6Mc5G76
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張晨瑤愣個幾秒,學著她的動作,說:「同類。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAYV1zA0OX0i
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權恩聳聳肩,揚起更大的笑容:「我也是,同類。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAiixjH46tMm
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