
Pov Ranti
Awalnya aku menegangkan bahu. Jantungku berdebar tak karuan.219Please respect copyright.PENANAZfbV6pLtos
Jemarinya yang menyentuh pahaku terasa terlalu berani. Tapi aku tidak219Please respect copyright.PENANAElvYJIIb0r
menghentikannya. Tidak juga ketika tangannya naik perlahan ke pinggang.
Aku sempat melirik suamiku. Dia masih duduk diam di sudut219Please respect copyright.PENANAhJGoBQ89Ab
ruangan. Matanya menatap lurus ke arah kami. Tak bicara. Tak bergerak.
Dan di situlah semuanya berubah.
Canggungku perlahan larut. Ada sensasi lain yang merambat219Please respect copyright.PENANAbfcCFomWtE
dari balik kulitku—perasaan sedang dipertontonkan. Seolah aku sedang bermain219Please respect copyright.PENANAlKDV99c4Ie
dalam film dewasa, dan satu-satunya penonton adalah lelaki yang telah219Please respect copyright.PENANAuHNzKVHgrA
menemaniku bertahun-tahun.
Aneh… Tapi menggairahkan.
Tangannya kini memelukku dari samping. Bibirnya menyusuri219Please respect copyright.PENANA0huYxpGgD1
leherku, membuatku menengadahkan kepala, memberinya ruang. Jantungku masih berdebar,219Please respect copyright.PENANATkfTC4DE3H
rasa malu dan karena hasrat. Dan ketika219Please respect copyright.PENANA7BLaDErsIC
mataku kembali menangkap pandangan suamiku yang masih menatap diam… aku menggeliat.
Aku ingin dia melihat semuanya. Aku ingin dia tahu betapa219Please respect copyright.PENANAVmFy5ywVSA
panas tubuhku dibuat oleh lelaki lain.
Aku mendesah pelan saat tangan Rafi menekan pinggangku dan219Please respect copyright.PENANAVBQBl4f8BU
menarik tubuhku lebih dekat. Aku tidak lagi menolak. Bahkan tubuhku bergerak219Please respect copyright.PENANAAcwnTsOHVq
sendiri, mendekatkan dadaku ke dadanya. Nafasnya terasa hangat di wajahku, lalu219Please respect copyright.PENANA2oQx6FVxgn
tanpa aba-aba, bibirnya menangkap bibirku.
Basah, lembut, dan panas.
Lidahnya masuk, menjelajah, menuntut. Aku membalas. Rakus.219Please respect copyright.PENANAqnI6vMkSjZ
Bibirku menghisap balik. Kami bertukar air liur seperti sepasang kekasih yang219Please respect copyright.PENANAa4JUAWBhy3
tak bertemu bertahun-tahun.
Tangannya meraba punggungku, lalu turun ke bokongku,219Please respect copyright.PENANAbBJPHQTsru
meremasnya pelan. Aku menggeliat. Suara kecil keluar dari tenggorokanku.
Saat itu, aku kembali melirik ke arah suamiku.
Dia masih di sana. Menatap kami. Wajahnya tegang, namun tak219Please respect copyright.PENANAcDFHeljodp
bergerak. Matanya seperti terbakar, tapi tak satu kata pun keluar dari219Please respect copyright.PENANABI59AHS4Og
mulutnya.
Dan entah kenapa, pemandangan itu membuatku semakin liar.
Tanganku membuka kancing baju sendiri, memperlihatkan bra219Please respect copyright.PENANAEfMIUOKAT3
tipisku. Rafi menunduk, menyambar payudaraku dengan mulutnya. Dia mengisap,219Please respect copyright.PENANA8Rk0YCETp3
menggigit kecil putingku yang sudah keras. Aku mengerang keras, tidak lagi219Please respect copyright.PENANAlWiskl35J9
peduli siapa yang mendengar.
Aku menoleh ke arah suamiku.
"Sayang…" bisikku samar, sengaja. "Lihat219Please respect copyright.PENANAbWkxsgeJIM
aku…"
Tanganku menuntun tangan Rafi ke celanaku. Dia mengerti.219Please respect copyright.PENANA10fbUr2C8H
Satu sentuhan di balik kain dalamku membuatku gemetar.
Lidahnya kembali naik ke leherku sementara jemarinya masuk219Please respect copyright.PENANAcsnUZQRRs1
ke dalam celanaku dan langsung menemukan kelembapan yang sudah tak bisa kusembunyikan.219Please respect copyright.PENANATjImUW3OOn
Jari itu mulai menggerayangi, membelai, menyapu pelan kelopakku.
Aku tak tahan
Kepalaku bersandar ke dadanya. Nafasku berat. Lalu dia219Please respect copyright.PENANAVMGAaEYb11
menggesek klitorisku dengan gerakan lembut namun mantap.
Tubuhku bergetar.
Aku mencapai orgasme hanya dengan jarinya. Tapi... rasanya219Please respect copyright.PENANAlgMDFbiJ8H
berbeda. Karena aku tahu... ada mata suamiku yang menyaksikan semuanya.
Sensasi itu... sensasi dilihat, diizinkan, bahkan mungkin219Please respect copyright.PENANAtIXAKCwTKc
dinikmati olehnya... membuat klimaksku lebih dalam. Bukan sekadar fisik. Tapi219Please respect copyright.PENANALhGLFHmV8Y
juga batin. Seperti ada sesuatu dalam diriku yang pecah, meledak, dan menyebar219Please respect copyright.PENANANw2QiQf24v
hangat ke seluruh tubuh.
Dan saat aku menyadari cairanku membasahi tangannya... aku219Please respect copyright.PENANAgm0wczAFzH
tahu: ini candu. Tabu. Tapi nikmatnya tak bisa lagi kusembunyikan.
Aku baru menyadarinya ketika kulihat wajah suamiku menegang.219Please respect copyright.PENANAQe5i4vxrM0
Tubuhnya menggigil halus. Matanya membelalak tapi tak bersuara. Kedua tangannya219Please respect copyright.PENANAAlfEfWsCHX
mengepal, lalu—seolah kalah oleh gelombang yang tak tertahan—ia mendesah219Please respect copyright.PENANAzb2k9P1D1e
panjang dan perlahan menunduk, seperti seorang prajurit yang pasrah dalam219Please respect copyright.PENANAd02JEU3rV5
kekalahan... atau kemenangan?
Aku melihat basah di celana longgarnya. Aku tahu persis apa219Please respect copyright.PENANAVPyU8gr6oM
yang terjadi.
Dia... keluar. Tapi kok bisa ?
Bukan karena menyentuhku. Bukan karena kusentuh. Tapi hanya219Please respect copyright.PENANAtAVb3KGPlX
dengan menyaksikan. Dengan menyimak seluruh tubuhku yang disentuh, disayang,219Please respect copyright.PENANAR3J12Udvd4
dijilat oleh pria lain. Hanya itu—dan dia pecah.
Aku terdiam sejenak. Jantungku berdetak keras.
Lalu sesuatu menyeruak dari dalam dadaku: perasaan yang219Please respect copyright.PENANAx4gaajxPoi
belum pernah kurasa sebelumnya.
Aku... merasa di atas. Lebih dari sekadar cantik. Aku adalah219Please respect copyright.PENANA6yk6gz8rpC
sumber candunya. Aku adalah racun sekaligus penyembuhnya.
Dia, suamiku yang biasanya menuntun dan memimpin, kini219Please respect copyright.PENANAiFXPF6QtQ3
justru menyerah pada sensasi yang kubentuk. Dengan tubuhku. Dengan219Please respect copyright.PENANAStHWjY4tdz
keberanianku.
Dan saat aku memeluk Rafi lebih erat—bukan karena cinta,219Please respect copyright.PENANAtT7acpvkTF
tapi karena gairah—aku menatap suamiku penuh kelembutan.
Terima kasih, batinku. Terima kasih karena telah mencintaiku219Please respect copyright.PENANAARhKCLhEOY
seperti itu. Menerimaku, bahkan saat aku bukan hanya milikmu dalam detik-detik219Please respect copyright.PENANAooXPpVixRI
ini. Kau biarkan aku terbuka, dan dari sana... aku justru merasa dimiliki lebih219Please respect copyright.PENANAGXPLFxp6Ss
dalam.
Aku menutup mata. Dalam hatiku, aku tahu satu hal:
Ini bukan sekadar perselingkuhan atau eksperimen.
Ini… kekuatan. Candu. Dan mungkin, awal dari sesuatu yang219Please respect copyright.PENANAtKiHDAT5du
tak bisa lagi kami hentikan.
POV suami
Air di kamar mandi terus menetes dari keran. Suara kecilnya219Please respect copyright.PENANAHkOLv5q7pY
memantul di antara dinding, memecah keheningan yang menggantung.
Aku duduk di tepi ranjang, masih belum mampu berkata219Please respect copyright.PENANAf5lEO63CCh
apa-apa. Tanganku gemetar. Bukan karena takut… tapi karena bingung pada diriku219Please respect copyright.PENANAie18Gosoy2
sendiri.
Aku biarkan pria lain menyentuh istriku. Aku lihat tubuh219Please respect copyright.PENANAYLrATl2yZF
Surti meregang, bibirnya menganga dan matanya terpejam dalam nikmat. Dan saat219Please respect copyright.PENANAzSatVtUHDD
dia mencapai puncaknya—tanpa menyentuhku sedikit pun—aku justru ikut menegang219Please respect copyright.PENANAbj6uw28Pin
dan meledak... dalam diam.
Kenapa aku tidak menghentikannya?
Atau... kenapa aku begitu menikmatinya?
Rasa bersalah mencengkeram dadaku. Apakah ini bentuk219Please respect copyright.PENANAJFDubEBd4Q
cinta... atau bentuk pengkhianatan terhadap cinta?
Pintu kamar mandi terbuka perlahan. Uap tipis menyelinap219Please respect copyright.PENANALfspw7B7gU
keluar. Surti berdiri di sana, hanya memakai handuk, rambutnya basah menjuntai219Please respect copyright.PENANACMAPv0Z7ra
di leher. Matanya mencari-cari, lalu menatapku. Ada kecanggungan. Tapi juga ada219Please respect copyright.PENANAMOuTNuPJVA
sorot hangat di dalamnya.
"Aku nggak tahu harus bilang apa," bisiknya.219Please respect copyright.PENANA8SGjXSJIvA
"Tapi aku nggak nyangka... kamu bisa..."
Aku bangkit perlahan. Tanpa berkata-kata, aku melangkah ke219Please respect copyright.PENANADxGWIIfcsG
arahnya, lalu memeluknya dari belakang. Tubuhnya hangat, beraroma sabun, dan219Please respect copyright.PENANAuBzJGQJyCv
dadaku terasa sesak karena pelukan itu bukan sekadar menenangkan—tapi pengakuan219Please respect copyright.PENANAein5L3vVKD
akan rasa bersalah dan kelegaan yang tumpang tindih.
"Aku cuma ingin kamu bahagia," kataku pelan.
Dia diam sebentar, lalu meletakkan tangannya di atas219Please respect copyright.PENANAfhiBqB58z3
tanganku. "Aku juga. Tapi waktu lihat kamu seperti itu... aku merasa...219Please respect copyright.PENANAz0AANKJpoQ
penting. Di matamu. Bahkan saat tubuhku di tangan orang lain."
Pelukanku mengerat. Tanganku menyusuri perutnya perlahan.219Please respect copyright.PENANAqmucCHWNxz
Nafasnya mulai berubah.
"Kalau kamu masih menginginkanku setelah semua219Please respect copyright.PENANAqtOpUMRXOW
ini..." katanya pelan, "aku akan menyerahkan semuanya. Bahkan219Please respect copyright.PENANAwUwvLnSnMx
tubuhku. Sepenuhnya. Tapi... kamu yang harus arahkan aku sekarang."
Aku mencium pundaknya. Tak ada hasrat terburu-buru. Hanya219Please respect copyright.PENANAiJgKsDtw07
sebuah keputusan—bahwa mulai saat ini, Surti bukan hanya istriku.
Dia adalah canduku.
Ini kisah 3 bulan yg lalu dan sejak saat itu ntah kenapa219Please respect copyright.PENANAePXZTwGAvJ
pandanganku terhadap Ranti berubah, aku tahu dia hanya bersosial tapi hatku219Please respect copyright.PENANAQA5XYi9mGl
panas terbakar cemburu, Meskipun Ranti tak pernah meminta dengan laki2 lain219Please respect copyright.PENANAANNrk6RTHu
lagi atau merendahkanku stiap berhubungan badan tapi hatiku tak perna tenang,219Please respect copyright.PENANAhhqbYmiADo
jangan2 Ranti selingkuh
Jangan2 Rantj main diam2 di belakangku
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Jhoni219Please respect copyright.PENANAnW07b9FUHn
duduk di tepi ranjang, memandangi istrinya yang sibuk melepas hijab dan219Please respect copyright.PENANAQktpHlGgOi
mengganti pakaian. Hatinya sesak sejak tadi—sejak melihat Ranti tertawa terlalu219Please respect copyright.PENANAJgPnSAFOw2
lepas bersama pria tetangga mereka, Dani. Terlalu dekat, terlalu akrab
"Aku cuma tanya, Ran..." Jhoni memulai pelan tapi219Please respect copyright.PENANAt60dx2qP8a
tajam. "Itu kenapa tadi kamu bisa serileks itu sih ngobrol sama Dani?219Please respect copyright.PENANANAYB3aHWVq
Ketawa-tawa, sampe nepuk-nepuk pundaknya segala."
Ranti berhenti mengganti baju. Tatapannya ke arah suaminya219Please respect copyright.PENANA9Y2fRKv8QT
datar, lelah. "Kamu serius nanya gitu?"
"Aku lihat sendiri, Ran," Jhoni berdiri, berjalan219Please respect copyright.PENANAGG3Hc738yD
mendekat. "Kamu gak lihat ekspresi dia? Matanya kayak orang ngiler. Dan219Please respect copyright.PENANAZoLgCWtFOn
kamu malah... kayak nikmatin."
"Jadi aku gak boleh senyum? Gak boleh ngobrol sama219Please respect copyright.PENANA5cv4OIgT9o
orang?" Nada suara Ranti naik setingkat. "Gila ya kamu, Jon. Semua219Please respect copyright.PENANA9irfdx95tB
aku salah di matamu."
"Karena kamu kelihatan beda, Ran," bisik Jhoni,219Please respect copyright.PENANAgklKBw4Nep
kali ini lebih lirih, tapi lebih menyakitkan. "Beda... kayak kamu219Please respect copyright.PENANAXcvNBAYztF
suka."
"Dan kalau aku suka?!" Ranti membalikkan badan,219Please respect copyright.PENANAWe8ujjhQbb
kini sepenuhnya menghadap suaminya. Nafasnya naik turun, dadanya bergemuruh.219Please respect copyright.PENANAVZzNRVU0Gr
"Kalau aku beneran pengen dia? Pengen ciuman sama dia? Bahkan... pengen219Please respect copyright.PENANATvLyhxNbLp
hisap punyanya sampe muncrat di mukaku—kamu mau apa?!"
Jhoni terdiam. Dunia seperti berhenti berputar. Matanya tak219Please respect copyright.PENANAdjePfROe7b
sanggup menatap istrinya, tapi tubuhnya justru merespons: mengeras, tegang.219Please respect copyright.PENANAN9ehOHigqc
Batin dan hasratnya saling menghantam.
"Aku gak ngerti kamu sekarang..." gumam Jhoni219Please respect copyright.PENANAMQlMDGl1Hz
nyaris seperti anak kecil. "Ini yang kamu mau? Ngetes aku? Nunjukin kalau219Please respect copyright.PENANA1puLBL0MWj
kamu bisa jadi liar juga?"
Ranti mendekat, wajahnya tepat di depan wajah Jhoni.219Please respect copyright.PENANAbK79sCNZ5b
"Aku cuma capek dituduh, Jon. Kalau kamu ngerasa aku binal... sekalian aja219Please respect copyright.PENANAQHi5YgwQzq
aku jadi binal beneran."
Jhoni duduk diam di meja makan, mengaduk kopi yang sudah219Please respect copyright.PENANAfsHz2xwspP
dingin. Matanya tajam memperhatikan Ranti yang sedang membereskan piring,219Please respect copyright.PENANAiH9sxo6sHz
padahal tidak ada yang benar-benar perlu dibereskan. Hanya kesibukan palsu,219Please respect copyright.PENANAtkjYhQokN1
cara Ranti menghindari tatapan yang sudah penuh tuduhan itu.
“Aku cuma tanya biasa, jangan langsung berubah gitu,” suara219Please respect copyright.PENANAXWj8DGlCFx
Jhoni akhirnya pecah, tenang tapi tajam. “Kenapa kamu tadi deket banget sama si219Please respect copyright.PENANArdkgnNXwOe
Bayu? Ketawa-tawa segala. Emang lucu ya dia?”
Ranti mendesah pelan, meletakkan piring dengan suara yang219Please respect copyright.PENANAzt1nlKexQT
agak keras dari biasanya.
“Kamu serius nanya kayak gitu?” katanya tanpa menoleh. “Aku219Please respect copyright.PENANA7xr1wWuH4z
cuma basa-basi. Gitu aja bikin kamu cemburu?”
“Basa-basi sampai tangannya nempel ke lenganmu? Sampai kamu219Please respect copyright.PENANAOygibRLDw3
senyum semanis itu?” Jhoni berdiri, suaranya sedikit meninggi. “Aku gak bego,219Please respect copyright.PENANAXwgRpYnWN5
Rant. Aku liat semua gerak-gerik kamu.”
Ranti akhirnya menoleh. Matanya bukan marah—tapi kecewa.
“Kalau kamu mikir aku semurah itu, kenapa nggak sekalian219Please respect copyright.PENANA8CnJd8H1Zw
kamu suruh aku buktikan aja sekalian?” katanya datar, penuh tantangan. “Mungkin219Please respect copyright.PENANArxbrfF2kx7
kamu malah suka liat aku digituin orang lain. Mungkin itu fantasi kamu219Please respect copyright.PENANAWCDvtHxIqj
sebenernya.”
Jhoni terdiam. Dada sesak, bukan karena marah, tapi karena219Please respect copyright.PENANAN8GG2wCHVg
rasa bersalah yang aneh. Setiap kali ia bayangkan kemungkinan itu... ada rasa219Please respect copyright.PENANA8fpnMQWFkD
panas menjalar di tubuhnya. Rasa yang tak pernah ia minta, tapi muncul dari219Please respect copyright.PENANAvSpx1zZ3Nc
imajinasi yang ia bangun sendiri.
Ranti mendekat, pelan. Menatap suaminya dalam.
“Kalau aku buka bajuku depan dia, kamu bakal marah? Atau219Please respect copyright.PENANA4FaxbAeHkT
malah berdiri sambil nonton kayak malam itu waktu Ramon nyentuh aku?” bisiknya.219Please respect copyright.PENANAu6UUhJWSsk
“Kalau aku gigit bibirnya, kamu bakal pukul dia... atau malah keluar duluan?”
Jhoni menelan ludah. Tenggorokannya kering.
Dan di situlah permainan batin itu dimulai—saat rasa cemburu219Please respect copyright.PENANA7hikFiBSxK
berubah menjadi lubang dalam yang justru menghisapnya ke dalam kenikmatan yang219Please respect copyright.PENANANVD2iQmcsU
tabu.
Pagi itu, aroma kopi menyebar lembut dari dapur. Ranti219Please respect copyright.PENANAtza5AnQ5RF
berdiri di dekat kompor, masih mengenakan daster tipis dengan rambut yang219Please respect copyright.PENANABmNKu3Hko9
diikat asal. Ia tampak lebih ceria dari biasanya, senyumnya seperti mengembang219Please respect copyright.PENANAJEHzjhO5RP
lebih lama dari sekadar basa-basi pagi.
Hingga di suatu hari
"Mas, nanti siang aku ada reuni SMA, ya. Di café deket219Please respect copyright.PENANASxUu6UyFtm
kampus dulu itu lho."
Jhoni yang duduk di meja makan, mengaduk kopi perlahan,219Please respect copyright.PENANAlbmoSeknKo
menoleh dengan tatapan datar. "Reuni? Tumben banget kamu semangat219Please respect copyright.PENANAcg8WOjwh1Q
banget."
Ranti terkekeh kecil. "Yaa... ketemu temen-temen lama.219Please respect copyright.PENANAOXkqAvlIlQ
Nostalgia. Dulu kan aku gak pernah ikut acara beginian waktu masih ngajar di219Please respect copyright.PENANA49Uw3JN61Q
pondok."
Jhoni mengangguk, tapi tidak bicara. Di balik tatapannya,219Please respect copyright.PENANACBAdzd4eGL
hatinya menghangat oleh rasa yang familiar: cemburu. Ia membayangkan219Please respect copyright.PENANACvVLhSPHUu
wajah-wajah pria yang dulu pernah dekat dengan istrinya. Mantan-mantan yang219Please respect copyright.PENANAicmCtoqN3h
mungkin masih menyimpan rasa. Pria-pria yang tahu seperti apa suara tawa Ranti219Please respect copyright.PENANAc35sFPTjhq
saat masih remaja, tahu caranya membuat Ranti tersipu, tahu bagaimana caranya219Please respect copyright.PENANAWWVS0XKzkQ
menyentuh tanpa menyentuh.
Ia mencoba bersikap santai. Tapi lidahnya gatal menembak,219Please respect copyright.PENANADbjVOSNVdk
"Pasti ada si Bima, ya?"
Ranti yang sedang menuang air ke termos terdiam sejenak.219Please respect copyright.PENANApv1wC6H4Z9
"Mungkin. Aku juga gak tahu siapa aja yang dateng."
"Bima itu mantan kamu, kan?"
"Tapi itu dulu, Mas," jawab Ranti sambil219Please respect copyright.PENANA0wrbzJDkyC
tersenyum, tetap tenang. "Sekarang aku istrimu."
Jawaban itu seharusnya cukup. Tapi kenapa rasanya justru219Please respect copyright.PENANAcn8KPabvYL
seperti menampar?
Jhoni menyesap kopinya. Pahit. Sama seperti rasa yang kini219Please respect copyright.PENANAgBwJWYUJqF
bergolak dalam dadanya.
Pagi itu, aroma kopi menyebar lembut dari dapur. Ranti219Please respect copyright.PENANAkRovyoSWms
berdiri di dekat kompor, masih mengenakan daster tipis dengan rambut yang219Please respect copyright.PENANAB4emRS7qbE
diikat asal. Ia tampak lebih ceria dari biasanya, senyumnya seperti mengembang219Please respect copyright.PENANAe1WkPWXY8y
lebih lama dari sekadar basa-basi pagi.
Jhoni menyesap kopinya. Pahit. Sama seperti rasa yang kini219Please respect copyright.PENANAl8uac10bNV
bergolak dalam dadanya.
Ranti melangkah ke kamar, berganti pakaian. Ia memilih kaus219Please respect copyright.PENANAErRH2Yvogd
simpel dan celana bahan, tapi Jhoni tetap memperhatikan setiap detil dengan219Please respect copyright.PENANAUM8EFsSGJZ
tatapan curiga. Matanya mengikuti lekuk tubuh istrinya seolah mencari-cari219Please respect copyright.PENANAMkcn93Zqa6
tanda pengkhianatan yang belum tentu ada.
"Rapi amat, kayak mau ngedate aja," gumam Jhoni219Please respect copyright.PENANAc36c1aHceG
tanpa menatap.
Ranti menoleh, alisnya terangkat. "Ini cuma baju biasa,219Please respect copyright.PENANANhy2ywtS5W
Mas."
Jhoni berdiri dari kursi. "Kamu senyum-senyum sendiri219Please respect copyright.PENANAvBCCXQVdax
dari tadi. Gaya bicaramu juga beda. Jangan-jangan kamu emang pengen ketemu219Please respect copyright.PENANA5d2hpRMa5Z
Bima, ya? Masih ada rasa, ya?"
Ranti menatap suaminya, napasnya mulai berat. "Mas219Please respect copyright.PENANABWCS9OmNsC
ngomong apa sih?"
"Aku lihat cara kamu nyiapin diri dari tadi. Kamu219Please respect copyright.PENANADV6mXF0kFN
itu... kayak cewek yang mau balikan sama mantannya."
"Mas, jangan keterlaluan. Aku cuma mau reuni. Itu219Please respect copyright.PENANAYB01N9qdpH
temen-temen SMA-ku. Masa iya aku harus kelihatan berantakan biar Mas gak219Please respect copyright.PENANAR41m5DRrWM
curiga?"
"Tapi kamu bisa aja bohong kan? Siapa yang tahu kamu219Please respect copyright.PENANAYdSpV0QJYD
ngapain nanti di sana? Pegang-pegangan tangan? Pelukan? Atau lebih dari219Please respect copyright.PENANAyBvyBxDCZI
itu?"
Bug! Gelas kopi Jhoni terbanting ke meja. Ranti menahan219Please respect copyright.PENANAzyCKHmt5i1
napas.
Ranti mendekat, matanya tak berkedip menantang. "Mas,219Please respect copyright.PENANAHBlKjfTv3I
kalau Mas segitu gak percayanya sama aku..." suara Ranti bergetar, penuh219Please respect copyright.PENANAZaNSLQrfIw
campuran marah dan sedih, "...gimana kalau sekalian aja aku bawa Bima ke219Please respect copyright.PENANASFLWSAUvXw
rumah?"
Jhoni diam.
"Aku ajak dia ke sini. Kita duduk bareng. Biar Mas219Please respect copyright.PENANAEiPC7XYTar
lihat sendiri. Kalau perlu, aku akan cium dia di depan Mas. Biar Mas puas, biar219Please respect copyright.PENANAfzsWa9PVU0
Mas tahu sejauh apa aku bisa."
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Jhoni menyeringai miris. "Coba aja kalau memang kamu219Please respect copyright.PENANAewvsjS1hZB
berani. Aku tunggu."