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季慈為程華的話撼動。他無法說服自己不去相信,尤其是程華一心一意的看著他,努力傳遞他的認真,無聲訴求不要質疑我。127Please respect copyright.PENANAmPQJS3z6rf
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他不知道程華怎麼看見連他都沒發現的問題,他以為是過往的經歷讓他產生陰影因而害怕,所以他從來沒有想過是不相信愛情。不過,也是了,如果他相信,就不會用這種姿態逃跑了。127Please respect copyright.PENANA7KTg2MrAMa
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季慈本來沒打算喝酒,就跟他不打算承認隱約細微的小快樂一樣,程華破壞了他的決定。127Please respect copyright.PENANAGsMaI4FsMj
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「為什麼要喜歡我,當朋友不好嗎?」他看著程華。127Please respect copyright.PENANARwLqzw9WWy
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程華也喝了一杯。「……我也曾經如此。」127Please respect copyright.PENANARMCnirPVZD
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季慈詫異睜大雙眼。127Please respect copyright.PENANACRhwvLb5hH
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「我媽在我很小的時候就去世了,在僅有的記憶裡,她跟老爸的感情不錯,並不是一般上流家庭常見的相敬如賓。我媽很愛抱著我說她有多喜歡老爸身上哪些優點,可是這些在她去世後我一個都不相信,因為老爸帶回了兩個情婦。」程華抓起一支串燒,表情閒逸的像在說別人的故事。「按照時間算起,他在婚姻存在就結識了小三跟小四,我無法接受這種欺騙行為,尤其我媽是那樣愛著他。」127Please respect copyright.PENANAOKjAAm3Jt0
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季慈感到有些胃疼,這是一個相似率多麼高的故事。127Please respect copyright.PENANA9lEFLDwEss
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「我的家庭跟一般不太一樣,應該說完全不一樣。我在國小畢業前的年齡沒有任何一個同年的朋友,生活範圍只有那棟豪華的別墅,每個時段都被各種課題塞滿。那時候的我個性陰沉,跟我老爸萬分不熟,光看他就討厭還有他那兩個小三。」他吃完一支又一支的串燒,轉移戰線開始啃食鮮美的鹽烤魚下巴。下巴有點難啃,程華暫時停下嘴巴,花了幾秒決戰那隻下巴。127Please respect copyright.PENANAfDWlu7dtxN
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「之後呢?」季慈追問。他發現這真是個爛俗的故事,人生何止相似,多數像是複製。127Please respect copyright.PENANAq5i3eIX0sj
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程華剃出魚骨,「一直到我在外地讀書玩得不亦樂乎的某年,小四跟我說老爸病倒了,要我回去盡孝道。天知道回去後等著我的是一場相親宴,我差點沒笑死,氣得衝進老爸的書房想找他對質,但那老頭正在訓斥他的兩位紅顏。你想猜猜他講了什麼嗎?」他輕挑的挑高右眉,嘴邊的笑意諷刺味十足。127Please respect copyright.PENANAdH1McaPV5p
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季慈動了動手指,握著酒杯的手緊了緊。「多管閒事?」127Please respect copyright.PENANAEWRQFn1k7c
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程華一副你了解的模樣續道:「老爸的聲音變得很蒼老,幾乎不像是我記憶中嚴肅宏亮的聲音,他罵他們多管閒事,然後說了一段話:『我很抱歉讓你們無名分的跟著我這麼多年,但我答應她,要讓兒子自由選擇伴侶。』他最後甚至還說,他這輩子最愛的女人永遠是我媽。當下我整個傻了。」127Please respect copyright.PENANAoZeIPvfSEF
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季慈聽到這也覺得自己傻了。親眼所見的事實有時候並非看見的那樣,是嗎?127Please respect copyright.PENANAutRRUMzhiG
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「因為這段故事造成我一開始找對象都有點疑神疑鬼,一直抱持著遊戲人間的想法,但老爸的一番話讓我看見每個人未從說出的另一面,那一面或許不是眼睛所能看見的。我又花了一段時間去了解,這才漸漸走出來。」程華捻了捻紙巾擦乾淨手指的油漬,神情專注認真地望向他,季慈跟著程華端坐,情緒緊繃的怕程華再次告白。127Please respect copyright.PENANAiJkf8n0T0p
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「所以,季慈,你有要吃嗎?」程華指著那鍋他點的湯,季慈錯愕的看了看湯,又看了看程華,在對方臉上看見溫柔的笑容,愣愣地搖頭。「那我吃掉了。」程華獨自喝完了那鍋湯。127Please respect copyright.PENANAFkGFAXISoq
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季慈呆愣地看著程華淅瀝呼嚕喝光湯。他定定地看,彷彿看見程華歡快喝湯的背後藏著故事裡沒說出的辛酸,過程總是這麼被輕描淡寫,可他最後笑出來了、走出來了,抗拒、排斥、不信任都留在過去,不讓其影響現在。程華可以做到,他為何不行?127Please respect copyright.PENANAcZSeqdACFh
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這晚沒有誰喝得爛醉,他們清醒地走出店家,沉默的各據計程車後座一角。127Please respect copyright.PENANA77i55axA2P
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存在他生命的愛情總是被帶走,像把利刃強硬的奪取他身上的某一部分。127Please respect copyright.PENANAK3tvahNQc1
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第一次是小時候。127Please respect copyright.PENANAhr67IvEXU8
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在季慈模糊的印象裡,小時候的他是個很調皮的小鬼,總是活力十足的為爸媽帶來挑戰,例如爬樹、盪鞦韆到最高點時跳下、學英雄倒掛在二樓的窗桿等等危險行為,因為他知道背後有強而有力溫暖的後盾。只是一切的一切都在爸媽離異後變了調。127Please respect copyright.PENANA7EXy86j85T
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季慈耳邊還迴盪著小時候詢問父親的話:「爸爸是不是不要小慈跟媽媽了?爸爸是不是不愛我們了?」127Please respect copyright.PENANAk59lkiytiq
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「爸爸愛,爸爸最愛小慈跟媽媽了,小慈不要難過。」那年父親抱著他親吻他的臉頰如是說道。多年後他看見父親懷裡抱著一個和他同高的女孩,旁邊還站著取代媽媽角色的人,季慈就知道自己是被拋下的、不要的一個孤兒。127Please respect copyright.PENANAbODPziEo2B
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父親口中的愛,只是謊言。127Please respect copyright.PENANA7qNkRCAECj
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車子停在他家巷口,季慈下了車,程華跟著下來。「季慈,我喜歡你安靜、沉默又孤寂的笑容,但要是可以,我希望你能發自內心開懷大笑。」127Please respect copyright.PENANAz5Mvrg3gV8
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季慈面對程華,計程車閃爍的黃燈有些刺眼。他曾被批評無趣,就在阿和口中。對彼此有興趣的時候阿和說他一點也不無趣,就算靜靜的看著他也能感到幸福和快樂,最終怎麼了?127Please respect copyright.PENANAlWJ1b8Difu
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只是第二次被愛背叛,如此而已。127Please respect copyright.PENANAlCnzwymuAt
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程華誠摯的目光瞬間讓他聯想到阿和,這是不公平的。程華的靠近帶給他溫暖,相同的背景讓他生出期待。他深吸口氣又暗暗吐掉,他說:「我需要點時間,謝謝你的故事。」127Please respect copyright.PENANA5irjplXn5i
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程華的眼睛放出光亮,他漾出快樂的笑容,季慈突然很想捏他的臉頰,那般輕鬆釋懷的笑意居然有點可惡。127Please respect copyright.PENANAgysxafEEwe
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「回去吧,司機等很久了。晚安。」他乾脆下逐客令,免得等會真的沒忍住去捏他臉。127Please respect copyright.PENANAd3wyMGFOs7
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「……晚安。呃……」程華表情傻氣,眼神飄移的不敢與他對望,季慈頓時搞不懂他究竟想幹嘛。「可以讓我抱一下嗎?」127Please respect copyright.PENANAsDYNFnNTQu
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「……不行。你快回家吧。」季慈搖頭,他喜歡程華的溫暖,會為對方的注意而開心,這已經是他的自私,在無法給予更多之前,不該繼續下去。127Please respect copyright.PENANAMbsyzGsTpL
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程華笑容變淡,淺淺的畫在嘴角,彷彿理解的點了點頭。「晚安。」127Please respect copyright.PENANAe6ZdNbs4a0
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「晚安。」127Please respect copyright.PENANArJSOe3dkvR
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