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人生苦短——死
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電視仍然亮著,新聞報導員正在講述關於疫情的新聞和消息。內容千篇一律,悶人又煩人。605Please respect copyright.PENANAvaR4C10bGW
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他打個呵欠,伸個懶腰。雙掌使勁按壓梳化,借力撐起整個人,避免膝頭過份受力。許是在凹陷的梳化坐得太長時間,大腿和臀部均感到少許麻痺。不至於會跌倒的程度,但他下意識地一邊倚扶著傢具,一邊拖著腳步走向浴室。605Please respect copyright.PENANAr8w8ESOAqh
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人老了,身體差了,動作遲緩了,連小便如此簡單和基本的本能也變得困難。甭提總是瞄不準便器,尿液還要是逐滴逐滴慢慢滴出來,彷彿要滴乾他的尊嚴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAQvuKXGG6tU
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怎麼辦?可以怎麼辦?吹口哨吧。口吹曲子,耳邊響起熟悉的歌聲,心裡默唸自勵自欺的歌詞。605Please respect copyright.PENANATqTVnxfutx
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莫再悲 莫再傷 遇到悲哀休誇張605Please respect copyright.PENANAJKppXQJxHd
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誰亦要經風與浪 誰遇挫敗不受傷605Please respect copyright.PENANA66UGYvLQFq
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逝去的 莫再想 路正崎嶇更漫長605Please respect copyright.PENANANAExrDrA3e
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何用嘆息風裏望 寶貴光陰笑著量605Please respect copyright.PENANAyCegITTyPi
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小便後,步出浴室,再次聽到報導員的沉悶腔調。605Please respect copyright.PENANAb4IC77JtuS
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抵不住。605Please respect copyright.PENANAABKT8g4yPM
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他決定到公園散步。605Please respect copyright.PENANAE6rSynDeuD
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望望手錶,是上午十時半。難怪放眼所見多是上年紀的人。605Please respect copyright.PENANAubC7osWKJ3
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好福氣的,或是三五成群談天說地,或是在家傭的攙扶下散步。福薄的,或是推著購物車奔波買餸,或是顫巍巍地被送上療養院的巴士。605Please respect copyright.PENANAAdueGlDRHM
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自己有福氣嗎?托賴。能走能動能講能吃,與兒孫同住。雖偶有口角,卻也沒有特別煩心事。605Please respect copyright.PENANAKDaGpLb9xV
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他知道自己該要感恩,奈何始終沒能衷心感謝上天。605Please respect copyright.PENANAqCZDIKp58n
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輕嘆一聲。繼續走。605Please respect copyright.PENANAr4kQ6XkQTe
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAcMwn6XD2uw
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他不自已憶起亡妻……605Please respect copyright.PENANArLkE9E1dmb
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三年前的夏天,她在家跌倒,傷及腿部筋骨,自此總是步履不穩,走路時偶爾會突然腳軟跌倒。兒子勸她多休息,不要外出。她明白兒子苦心,奈何整天悶在家中令她心情抑鬱,精神越益差勁。605Please respect copyright.PENANAFLX3VekY5o
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他偷偷帶她到公園散步散心。605Please respect copyright.PENANA9XrBCNiCPY
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「我的腿康復不了,是嗎?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAERkdGpwHDT
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「不是。你向來身體強健,這小小傷勢不是大問題。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAEbsxWjnZjt
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「我何時可以痊癒?我想去探望朋友。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAXR7iF3qGr0
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「快了、快了。不用著急!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAYk96VgGMhG
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「即是何時?」605Please respect copyright.PENANA9MZdXsAE43
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「下一個夏天。」605Please respect copyright.PENANACZco0680Ct
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她幽幽回望,驚訝丈夫斬釘截鐵交出一個確實答案——醫生也不敢斷言她會否康復。605Please respect copyright.PENANArWAYXOFIlF
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAmZ9vaCXSOq
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感動,明明眼前只有絕望。605Please respect copyright.PENANAS5bjEIbC6V
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她的手忽爾不再無力,牢牢緊挽住丈夫的臂膀。605Please respect copyright.PENANACLEdi2Jtmx
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奇蹟?希望?不。僅是信念,難以言喻的,難以理解的。他不是神、不是醫生、不是專業人士。他僅是一個脾氣古怪的躁狂糟老頭。但她就是相信他。605Please respect copyright.PENANAT4prP7iEPD
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內心終於安定下來。605Please respect copyright.PENANA6VWgtUBiQ0
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她沒再糾結於健康問題,開始向丈夫講述她的未來夏日大計:「探望朋友前,我要先辦一件十分要緊的事——吃『菠蘿油』!」605Please respect copyright.PENANARTsJfBl4Vz
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「但你的血糖……」605Please respect copyright.PENANAVXze2iHihr
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「我向來身體強健,這小小血糖問題不是大問題。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAQZTZxMtECd
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他會心一笑,笑她依舊貪吃如豬。605Please respect copyright.PENANAsmaMYi4TAS
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下一個夏天到來。她的腿傷還是沒能康復,走路時拐得更嚴重。605Please respect copyright.PENANAErdbrXvYHk
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兒子送她一根拐杖。605Please respect copyright.PENANAxTOedhKpbw
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當晚,她躲在浴室裡啜泣。他沒有上前安慰,因為所有安慰說話都沒能扭轉衰老之勢,倒不如讓她盡情宣洩情緒。605Please respect copyright.PENANA0yK1yaHMAL
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她不知道,整個晚上,丈夫徹夜無眠,眼睜睜望著天花,細聽她的哭聲,細想她的未來。605Please respect copyright.PENANAXpYmBYVh8l
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天亮,兒子和媳婦準時離家上班去。他送孫兒到學校後,馬上回家慫恿妻子一起外出逛街。「夏天嘛!當然要吃『菠蘿油』!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAIxbmgvXR6j
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妻子笑了,連忙穿上最漂亮的衣褲鞋襪,戴上最喜歡的髮夾,塗上最鮮色的紅唇膏。她沒有使用兒子送她的拐杖,因為丈夫就是世上最好的拐杖——依著他、靠著他,她安然走到今時今日的七十高齡。605Please respect copyright.PENANA2PqJ1NHHHR
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鐵路車站裡,人流如鯽,彷彿有股無形的強力水流在背後催促著。他懶理,繼續保持慢調,只知自己不僅是自己。605Please respect copyright.PENANAWpLGGzsGJj
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終於來到馳名的冰廳,二人各點一客「菠蘿油」。不好吃,亦不是回憶中的味道。605Please respect copyright.PENANAd7Qa3FwkWw
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不要緊,反正「菠蘿油」僅是一個名目而已。605Please respect copyright.PENANAumzSgNhBje
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夫婦相視而笑。笑甚麼,不知道,大概是完成了十分重要的事情吧。605Please respect copyright.PENANAfEygPCi745
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於願足矣。605Please respect copyright.PENANAbfTYcPTDXv
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沒過幾天,還未開始探望朋友,她已於睡夢中悄然離世……605Please respect copyright.PENANA8v0eJqmVtL
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公園裡,樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAI8dVpy1K51
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他不動聲息,藏起思念,繼續開步走。605Please respect copyright.PENANAeYITN9Hjkh
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總得走下去,不是嗎?605Please respect copyright.PENANAPTzVnfiDUk
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。605Please respect copyright.PENANAFaHXCKa1i1
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走到涼亭,看見熟悉的棋友正在對弈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAtAfkszfxop
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棋局中,事事分明,步步無情。605Please respect copyright.PENANAT1x3Cd6wmC
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他專注觀賽,全然忘記身後的樹影鳥蟲。
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人生苦短——病605Please respect copyright.PENANAb7unTlTz0T
他在床上徐徐張眼。605Please respect copyright.PENANAdUXMZ0E3ht
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。605Please respect copyright.PENANA7ER1h9QAIP
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。605Please respect copyright.PENANA5bsc2kw0aC
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嗯。醫院。605Please respect copyright.PENANAW0Aaoih4vo
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。605Please respect copyright.PENANAGgKF6RIBDe
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。605Please respect copyright.PENANAHu8cT5kLXx
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?605Please respect copyright.PENANAhw3QyZ2Jfg
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。605Please respect copyright.PENANA5M8IIc0ByE
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA4qCP5zX1C4
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAtaVMMY3xZC
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「知道。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAqlxFZdfvI9
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。605Please respect copyright.PENANADGsOYfEcrV
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。605Please respect copyright.PENANAhEmAJ92ZMf
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沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。605Please respect copyright.PENANApzoBHj3rks
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。605Please respect copyright.PENANANu8L3Rw9Ho
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。605Please respect copyright.PENANAb0EoA1KvZJ
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA2AhzbqRyr2
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「她知道了沒?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAIVQlpDMnlL
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「不打算告訴她。」605Please respect copyright.PENANASwBEuzZoLR
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAWiJ37ANN5D
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兒子笑而不語。605Please respect copyright.PENANAzsTpF3CrdE
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAeTE2kbORkv
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。605Please respect copyright.PENANAZAc1ubllVe
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。605Please respect copyright.PENANArDj0STGqIh
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。605Please respect copyright.PENANAfnFXd6HEGv
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。605Please respect copyright.PENANAUyL5a0e3e2
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAuhW2Hc4RUM
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他決定到公園走走。605Please respect copyright.PENANABCnuUjqnyd
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAXO228ZateO
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。605Please respect copyright.PENANAL3UQDxhqma
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。605Please respect copyright.PENANASXXXVab8T3
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。605Please respect copyright.PENANA4mRAS7DWTa
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全場一片默然。605Please respect copyright.PENANAktTnoiP95Q
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。605Please respect copyright.PENANAf2tf7XlTxI
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不要問為何。不要問感受。605Please respect copyright.PENANAXVN68jyfIs
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。605Please respect copyright.PENANA1dWvFFBj75
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。605Please respect copyright.PENANAcsN1KSym4B
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。605Please respect copyright.PENANAz9zpPcR8cC
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。605Please respect copyright.PENANAK0fi386nRH
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。605Please respect copyright.PENANAdMWo4fr0Dh
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAwLmxY18JOd
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。605Please respect copyright.PENANAKFFMKYo2hm
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。605Please respect copyright.PENANAW5VKBsfnQl
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。605Please respect copyright.PENANAj8YlNZyu6h
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。605Please respect copyright.PENANAcVo3iOfLYr
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?605Please respect copyright.PENANAyq6yYnWURk
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。605Please respect copyright.PENANA0iIP3NETAF
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不復見。605Please respect copyright.PENANAc0OaheraO4
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他莫名的被深深憾動。605Please respect copyright.PENANAYluzFtwUbk
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走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。605Please respect copyright.PENANAxZFiSMiIQF
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毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。605Please respect copyright.PENANA13ANFQWdYn
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「我不怕死。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA4PiZbIw43z
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA65kdKfXFeq
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「你有沒有想要完成的事?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAEF1XHhVVOR
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAHtzi137733
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「她的叮囑?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAX14vPa4cna
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「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAzjk3Bg6Jxg
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「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」605Please respect copyright.PENANArlYoRpH7R7
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「她沒這麼說。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAdd9urn1ZIF
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兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。605Please respect copyright.PENANANaX9dOD9wr
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再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。605Please respect copyright.PENANAeaQBwvZkqe
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無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。605Please respect copyright.PENANA4mwetEvbbV
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半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。605Please respect copyright.PENANAZZghO47UdG
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問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。605Please respect copyright.PENANALsUr50EapX
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離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。605Please respect copyright.PENANAyNovdNzYVZ
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAPcrLqaf607
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「你多活了三年半。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA2y5nqkTP7G
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAXWDMs3snPk
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「想繼續吃?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAFXX1E0IGkM
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAiJbqzhF66a
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。605Please respect copyright.PENANA0D7qjAvhuj
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他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……605Please respect copyright.PENANAiIyM5U6gdi
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兒子呢?605Please respect copyright.PENANALmx2cQtxzY
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。605Please respect copyright.PENANAzQNhXoom2d
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啊!記起來了。605Please respect copyright.PENANAs2FxRlMxmG
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。605Please respect copyright.PENANAqAFxcPO7R8
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果然。605Please respect copyright.PENANA296x75w8Xq
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。605Please respect copyright.PENANAkLhiYOCqXM
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。605Please respect copyright.PENANAm8i6GiRqZ6
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。
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死病老生——老605Please respect copyright.PENANA0GXadMQg7w
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他在搖搖椅上猛然醒來。605Please respect copyright.PENANAfK0jUO2zKT
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望望掛鐘,七時半。該要喚醒孫兒。605Please respect copyright.PENANADqzVMGa1BO
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輕敲孫兒房門,不聞回應。推門內進,不見孫兒身影。房內枱櫃床鋪依舊,掛牆照片卻變了樣——相中人稚嫩不再,五官英氣。他頓時意會到孫兒早已不再是黏人的小孩子,不需要他的照顧。605Please respect copyright.PENANAhALMukrQXB
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若有所失。605Please respect copyright.PENANAmJqvtTGwa7
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到公園散心吧。605Please respect copyright.PENANAEiIoHs2bTZ
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公園裡,美好回憶俯拾皆是。605Please respect copyright.PENANAu2exvQe64k
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憶起跟妻子慢步於蟲鳴之中,憶起與兒子傻傻追尋鳥叫源頭,憶起和孫兒偷偷在樹身刻字。605Please respect copyright.PENANAQr9dn1YGsa
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離開緩步徑,闖入樹林。605Please respect copyright.PENANA1O9dOipXgK
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找樹。找到那樹。605Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZHtuBMYrY
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不,不是它——因著樹身變得粗壯,刻記模糊難辨。605Please respect copyright.PENANALqB37zy300
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此樹不是當年那樹,正如現時的自己亦不是當年的自己。605Please respect copyright.PENANAdM7BRE8BYg
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長大、老去、病倒、死亡,無論願意不願意。605Please respect copyright.PENANAKmHpU05t5U
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不願意。605Please respect copyright.PENANALieq07YJZk
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想逃。605Please respect copyright.PENANASjRgFbiG1M
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逃!605Please respect copyright.PENANANwnrE04XCq
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逃出樹林。605Please respect copyright.PENANApqA5gDCTdP
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彷如隔世。605Please respect copyright.PENANAAu9SzAL6Ja
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陽光刺眼,氣溫熬人。不是回憶裡的現實。605Please respect copyright.PENANAdp5yHW18dq
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倏忽忘了路,忘了如何走下去……605Please respect copyright.PENANAVguKTawVb6
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一青年步入警署。605Please respect copyright.PENANAnQuLvLRRs9
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「你是誰?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAS18YPLxbqn
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「我是你的孫兒。」605Please respect copyright.PENANArqPju2SnIj
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「嗯……」605Please respect copyright.PENANAwUlHG8Se6g
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「爺爺,回家吧。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAdG5G2FFIP7
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「嗯……」605Please respect copyright.PENANAJe4N0DttOL
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家。他在搖搖椅上搖著、搖著,天花燈在眼前晃著、晃著,孫兒在廚房裡頭忙著、忙著。605Please respect copyright.PENANAtFUlnIIUl2
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一切近在眼前,卻又無比遙遠。反觀那些遠在天邊的,竟顯得如此接近。605Please respect copyright.PENANAME4YNNVIhs
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是否忘記了甚麼?605Please respect copyright.PENANAGnU1UP5n2K
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目光無意間落在緊閉的主人房房門上——何解兒子沒有一起吃午餐?605Please respect copyright.PENANAPC57ylYanW
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輕敲主人房房門,不聞回應。欲推門內進,卻發現房門上鎖——自己被兒子嫌棄了嗎?605Please respect copyright.PENANAwk50KKNHMq
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激動。拍拍拍,踢踢踢,吵吵吵。605Please respect copyright.PENANA5VqgvQ053F
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「快開門!我要跟你聊天!快開門!來!快開門!」605Please respect copyright.PENANApJsXX9ENkb
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孫兒應聲衝出廚房,上前阻止他吵鬧。拍門的手轉而搥打孫兒。孫兒逆來順受,硬生生吃痛。605Please respect copyright.PENANAydkzfDfPfk
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「爸爸不在房間裡。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAZI76vSLEqc
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「你騙我!他一定在裡面!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAT9VVvZfmKw
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「爺爺,你看看掛鐘——爸爸尚未下班,還在公司。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAlD9D7r7xwd
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未下班?在公司?他瞄向掛鐘——的確未到兒子下班時間。可是總覺得有甚麼不對勁……605Please respect copyright.PENANAiiCrn1hfh2
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見他愣住,孫兒馬上抓緊時機分散他的注意力:「爺爺,不如一起到公園散步。」605Please respect copyright.PENANACmdzNvnmVw
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公園裡,美好回憶俯拾皆是。605Please respect copyright.PENANAaBym6tP6Ik
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他享受沿路的樹影鳥蟲,孫兒只著眼於面前的佝僂身影——希望他忘記剛才的亂局吧,那就不用向他解釋家庭現況……605Please respect copyright.PENANAkEy71R76Z9
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爸爸癱瘓後,媽媽獨力扛起家庭重擔。數年以來,乳臭未乾的孩子、癱瘓的丈夫、腦部日漸退化的家翁以及工作壓力狠狠將她壓垮。她捱不下去,離家出走。爸爸難以接受愛妻的絕情,一直鬱鬱寡歡。605Please respect copyright.PENANArB7nOj3zWn
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某個深夜,忽聞爺爺自言自語。起床查探,驚見爺爺對著垂頭不動的爸爸侃侃而談。窗戶半掩,冷風吹得爸爸頭髮凌亂,臉色慘白。滿房遍地都是涼透的菸屁股。淡淡的菸味在鼻腔彌留不散,卻偏偏嗅不出半絲生命的氣息……605Please respect copyright.PENANAteoag7aufl
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他輕拍孫兒肩膀。605Please respect copyright.PENANAN3fmo0Plzl
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「不用發愁啊!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAhJtFKfGc34
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「你知道我在愁甚麼?」605Please respect copyright.PENANAzbkD8Nsswy
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「考試成績嘛!」605Please respect copyright.PENANA3NhlBMC5aN
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「對!我就是擔心考試成績!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAdfJv3dwYak
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「傻孩子!考試只是人生的一小部份,毋須將成績看得過份重要!」605Please respect copyright.PENANA29YVulTh67
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「嗯,我知道了……」605Please respect copyright.PENANA3HoeFrutxX
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孫兒唯唯諾諾,以假笑作結。605Please respect copyright.PENANAYuyg9B5EN7
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結伴走了又一段路。605Please respect copyright.PENANAIXPNs7ic6K
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他望望孫兒——像曾經的兒子,也像曾經的他。605Please respect copyright.PENANAbeMN5QTsZ8
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憶起關於兒子的一切,憶起關於自己的一切。605Please respect copyright.PENANAoBuawyDCbl
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希望孫身兒能夠好好活下去,活得比兒子好,活得比他好。605Please respect copyright.PENANAvwuWdzi8V6
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絕不能重覆亡妻與兒子的錯誤,留下一堆永遠沒解的執著予孫兒。605Please respect copyright.PENANAtqUYe3b4kx
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他輕拍孫兒肩膀。605Please respect copyright.PENANAq7MOpa3q7D
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「不用發愁啊!」605Please respect copyright.PENANATf85QI8Gcm
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「爺爺放心!考試而已,難不倒我!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAnMMuPCBstj
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「對於考試也好、爺爺也好,如果你累了,就乾脆放下吧!」605Please respect copyright.PENANA1IKr1d6xUQ
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他淡然一笑,笑孫兒長高長肉不長大。605Please respect copyright.PENANA9LB4LOZInI
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孫兒傻了眼——他是真瘋或是假傻?605Please respect copyright.PENANAAutF4T8Ha7
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沒待孫兒辨清真假,他已然幽幽踏步開步走。605Please respect copyright.PENANAn1woM0IgGQ
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孫兒沒有追上。知道自己該要追上,但雙腳偏偏誠實地佇立原地——多麼希望爺爺可以從此消失。605Please respect copyright.PENANAn19OGw4j7H
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佝僂身影幽幽遠去,沒入婆娑樹影當中不復見。605Please respect copyright.PENANAMQyGUi16je
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鳥繼續叫,蟲繼續鳴,不過往後的夏天從此走了調。605Please respect copyright.PENANAbYuRKvQCfg
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沒有在意的人,沒有在意自己的人,無論願意不願意。605Please respect copyright.PENANANB8IPFroeV
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。慢慢記起很多,慢慢忘記很多。605Please respect copyright.PENANAwqv3QkkJdf
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忘記為何自己會獨自一人走在樹林當中。605Please respect copyright.PENANAyugVnGZx0w
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找樹?找不到那樹。605Please respect copyright.PENANA5O6zY2ODgF
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樹不是當年那樹,正如現時的自己亦不是當年的自己。605Please respect copyright.PENANAE3CRbjmO8w
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長大、老去、病倒、死亡,無論願意不願意。605Please respect copyright.PENANAqoz1xFzFjJ
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願意。605Please respect copyright.PENANAl3RBMWeYDc
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無謂白花力氣去逃避。無人能夠逃過生老病死。605Please respect copyright.PENANAP9CyBpU4Du
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身累,心累。就此停下來,可以嗎……605Please respect copyright.PENANAy3zfPzmhP1
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一青年步入醫院。605Please respect copyright.PENANAaNlYiG27pd
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「你是誰?」605Please respect copyright.PENANA1t9Lr2KBbH
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「我是你的孫兒。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA9VqUlfVtQl
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「嗯……」605Please respect copyright.PENANA4QRhuFnNYq
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「爺爺,回家吧。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAuEEaZtwF4x
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「嗯……」
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死病老生——生605Please respect copyright.PENANA2wj6HEQh2O
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他在輪椅上猛然醒來。605Please respect copyright.PENANA9S601dhuYn
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANALVKbQYRJJW
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爺孫二人身處公園大道上。605Please respect copyright.PENANAiR8DKGu63X
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「口渴嗎?來,喝些許清水吧!」605Please respect copyright.PENANAhaJjyCnuil
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孫兒停步,從背囊掏出保溫水壺,欠身將插於壺嘴的飲管置於他雙唇之間。605Please respect copyright.PENANAFX7B5wG7I0
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他沒有吸吮。605Please respect copyright.PENANAwwoMzBEzF2
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孫兒保持這姿勢好一會,惟見他沒反應,也只好收起水壺。605Please respect copyright.PENANAcLkAtLoS7o
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罷。605Please respect copyright.PENANAw5tZAbZpfG
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAt58w5w9rIR
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他覺得這地方很眼熟,卻又苦苦想不起更多關於這地方的回應。605Please respect copyright.PENANArxxGLqvcod
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不要緊。605Please respect copyright.PENANAIGof1Tufsw
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反正該是不重要的事情——自己寶刀未老,才未糊塗得忘記重要事情。605Please respect copyright.PENANABvpgBAqIpl
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他仍是那個身體健康的他,每天為養活妻兒勞碌奔波。妻子貪吃,尤愛「菠蘿油」,於是他偶爾會帶她到冰廳享用下午茶。兒子是個單純正直的小孩,深信「一分耕耘,一分收穫」,於是他一直暗暗為兒子籌謀、護航……他很自豪,自覺是個好丈夫、好爸爸。605Please respect copyright.PENANAP9HtErJSQM
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嘴角輕揚。605Please respect copyright.PENANAe6HZzKzH9o
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三。605Please respect copyright.PENANAqXh38E6F0u
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那抹難以察覺的微笑僅維持了三秒。605Please respect copyright.PENANAtmQOy3GA2n
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三秒後,他忘記了前三秒的快樂,正如他忘記了大半生的重要人事物。605Please respect copyright.PENANABYfXe7ttdO
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要緊的,不再要緊。605Please respect copyright.PENANA69sRez5AQl
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罷。605Please respect copyright.PENANATYBHn81Loa
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。605Please respect copyright.PENANAALtQN4j6Ex
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循著鳥蟲之聲,他的眼珠子微微往上瞄。葉間隙縫的陽光誘人卻刺眼。605Please respect copyright.PENANAjiyW5tF2Pr
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輪椅一直前進,映入眼簾的紛亂光影不斷交替、退去、消失。605Please respect copyright.PENANAQvEZn6EA32
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在最後的最後,他眼前只餘一盞佇立於公園外的交通燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAzzO3ETS4S6
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紅燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAR5jOQY5imc
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「爺爺,這可能是我們最後一次一起逛公園。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAcuVQXtdApN
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孫兒彷彿自言自語。605Please respect copyright.PENANA1BO4rnTaoK
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綠燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAwyPDzr2VGk
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孫兒沒有開步走。605Please respect copyright.PENANAbUe9ZirBuu
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紅燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAqnHBHKdWNy
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「爺爺,我日後會盡量抽時間去探望你。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAtCo1xw7l9c
605Please respect copyright.PENANA3IQINI3R7y
孫兒彷彿對空氣許下諾言。605Please respect copyright.PENANAxlji13x5vz
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綠燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAb8P9XQUYah
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孫兒仍然沒有開步走。605Please respect copyright.PENANA9sLE97oqbN
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紅燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAHz0wRvtJAW
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「爺爺,你會怪責我嗎?」605Please respect copyright.PENANA2EXP3ZSBF4
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孫兒問空氣,縱使知道空氣沒能回應。605Please respect copyright.PENANAb7SJVDqOiH
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綠燈。605Please respect copyright.PENANAERk3i2eLLj
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「爺爺,放心。我會努力繼續走。」605Please respect copyright.PENANAkczBki4k2q
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孫兒抿抿雙唇,藏起憂思,推著輪椅開步走。605Please respect copyright.PENANAFxFOGfDlIf
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總得走下去,不是嗎?不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。605Please respect copyright.PENANACn6aH7dNDe
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這是從他身上學懂的。605Please respect copyright.PENANADs4LT7rjsa
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一生受用。605Please respect copyright.PENANAxW3AEagHWa
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「爺爺,謝謝你。」605Please respect copyright.PENANA8aGLWHlZRY
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孫兒的話猶如耳邊風,進不了他的耳,到不了他的心。605Please respect copyright.PENANAdKOjRp8Bnt
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要緊的,其實不要緊。605Please respect copyright.PENANAuQnRnRoT23
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罷。605Please respect copyright.PENANAI9cfy3QYNx
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他被送上安老院專車。605Please respect copyright.PENANA8FtGl4BFDo
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車窗外,無光街燈迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。605Please respect copyright.PENANAx6AVyMsG8h
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腦海裡,無數樹影鳥蟲交替、退去、消失。605Please respect copyright.PENANAARVuAQjiMe
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他被動地遠離昔日一切。605Please respect copyright.PENANAeGLEUFIjJh
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要緊的,不再要緊。605Please respect copyright.PENANA54lIWZCsB4
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他克盡己任,沒有遺憾。605Please respect copyright.PENANANQeMBVSED2
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他忘記前塵,沒有執著。605Please respect copyright.PENANA0wA3UsxY7Q
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有如被踐踏的梳化,有如被點燃的香菸,有如被吞吃的「菠蘿油」。605Please respect copyright.PENANAnxdKwA8bhh
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毫不在意未來的每個夏日。