Unable to feel

Please someone help me

This numbness is worse than the pain of feeling

Please, won’t you listen

Can’t you hear my screaming?

Why won’t anyone listen

Surrounded by people

Yet I have never been so alone

Fake smiles everywhere

All makeup and made up 

No one is real anymore

My mind screams

Yet my mouth can’t make a noise

I can’t ask for help

Can’t be attention seeking

If I am quiet,

If I ignore it,

If I bottle it up

Then maybe it will go away,

Maybe I won’t hurt anyone else,

Maybe I won’t have people leave me

This isn’t going away

I just want it to stop

There is only one way

I can’t take it anymore

I sit down and write

The bottles of emotions I kept

Shattering and spilling inside my mind