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Silence……... How sweet is the sound. No voices around. No one to tell you about those that are lost and those that are found. Did I fall to the ground? Tell me if there is something I did wrong today. Tell me anything. Tell me something now. Say something, please. The silence, the sweet silence kills. The knife cuts out all the sound, like the fat of a pig. No one is screaming. No one is dreaming. No one is saying a word. Why? Why did I dive head first in your silence? I beg you. I don’t deserve this. It feels like the ultimate punishment. To be placed in a room blindfolded and to not hear a single sound. It is only you and your thoughts. The thoughts that eventually exaggerate, that make you contemplate, that make your heart ache. Why does my mind work this way? Why does it paint a picture so clear when I’m consumed by your silence. The picture torments me. It leaves me in pain, it leaves me hurting each and every day. Why do I do this to myself? What exactly is it called? Is there a doctor that knows exactly why I think this way, why my heart works differently, beats differently, and is positioned differently than most? I don’t feel special, I just feel broken. You can keep analyzing my heart all you want but you’ll never find anything wrong. All you’ll find is the silence of the one I care about the most. The silence that dug itself deep into me and doesn’t want to escape. Why? Why does my heart ache like this? I don’t want it to make another sound. I want it to be as silent as your silence. I want it to stop making noise. I want it to stop feeling things, I want the torment to end. Silence……… ​​​​​​​8964 copyright protection23ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWeKM7MzUv 維尼

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