隔日的放學後,克理和月櫻並肩走在回家的路上,夕陽把影子拉長,一路延伸到騎樓底下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsYKlcoU3cw
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「欸,等等」月櫻忽然拉住克理的衣袖,「你有沒有看到那隻貓?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAO73iPK3jgG
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她指向一間轉角的玻璃咖啡廳,窗內有隻三花貓,正站在桌上,兩隻前掌高舉、像是小朋友學人拍手般,對著窗外的克理揮動。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvskWfW0GBg
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像是在招手,也像是在……鼓掌。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKQ39Z7TnrN
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「牠是在拍手嗎?」克理瞇著眼看,感覺有點荒唐。41Please respect copyright.PENANA8QRuJHlDvJ
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「我不知道,但我決定了,我要進去看看!」月櫻眼睛亮亮的,「貓咪居然在對你鼓掌,牠大概以為你是什麼貓咪男神吧。」41Please respect copyright.PENANACB1qSAepxv
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「不要鬧了啦……」克理忍不住笑出聲,但也沒有拒絕。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGGbT3mWTXx
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門推開的瞬間,一股溫暖奶茶香與淡淡貓草味湧了出來。地板上、書架間、甚至天花板的吊橋上,都窩著慵懶的毛小孩。41Please respect copyright.PENANApfOTpmH4RM
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還沒等他們坐下,剛才那隻三花貓就跳下桌子,晃晃悠悠走向克理,尾巴像旗子一樣高高豎著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1qZLjFPup
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牠在克理腳邊蹭了一圈,然後毫不客氣地往他膝蓋一跳,撲進他懷裡,喬好姿勢後,便安靜地闔上了眼睛。41Please respect copyright.PENANAN8PiF4q48j
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「牠怎麼那麼親你啊?」月櫻驚訝地問。41Please respect copyright.PENANAj60q9j6tuc
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「我也不知道,我什麼都沒做。」克理低聲說,連呼吸都放輕了,生怕驚動這位臨時訪客。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXb7F1skjR8
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月櫻伸出手,想摸摸貓的頭,結果牠發出幾聲喵喵喵的抗議,眼神寫著:「別碰我。」41Please respect copyright.PENANANqIHbmRxY0
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「牠不讓我摸耶,好傷心喔……」月櫻無奈地笑了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAIOoJMTwOEW
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「要循序漸進啦。」克理指導地說,「妳的手伸太快了,會嚇到牠。先伸出一根手指,讓牠聞聞妳的味道,等牠習慣了,再摸摸牠的背就好。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA1zk0sqwjiF
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月櫻依言照做,果然,貓咪不再抗拒,還發出咕嚕咕嚕的呼嚕聲。41Please respect copyright.PENANArzubUIrvVT
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「哇,好可愛喔~」她忍不住把貓咪抱起來,但剛讓牠離地,貓咪便開始掙扎。41Please respect copyright.PENANASq4O7k3TjQ
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「妳太急了啦!」克理說。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzkxSxAFf64
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「我覺得牠會讓我抱的。」月櫻小心地將貓咪緊緊摟住,彷彿要證明什麼。貓咪沉默了一會兒,似乎不再反抗。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyqhFTd4GrL
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下一秒,牠忽然使出飛撲大法,蹬了月櫻一腳,飛也似地溜走。41Please respect copyright.PENANAiMNbeGXKaZ
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「喂!可惡,竟然跑了!」她跺腳抗議。41Please respect copyright.PENANAh7PVlNEBkv
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克理忍不住笑出聲來,「信任是要慢慢培養的,急不來啊。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA2pdhQ4fVUW
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「如果不勇敢一次,相信對方會留在身邊,那信任要怎麼開始呢?」月櫻幾乎是立刻反駁。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYHCdbhcNYD
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克里還在思考什麼是信任,月櫻湊近克理耳邊說:「你有沒有不敢告訴我的秘密?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAUviLgLr5Qf
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克理心中一驚,心臟砰砰碰地亂跳。莫非月櫻猜到我昨晚跟葉老大簽的奇怪契約。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYenfwa1GNK
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「其實我一直想跟妳說一個秘密。」月櫻低聲說:「但我說出來之後,你不可以跑喔。你想聽嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANA7T7QIUzoZZ
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「如果這個秘密妳說出來會擔心,妳最好還是不要說。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAIhD5HM1mZm
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「可是……這樣我們之間就不會有信任,好朋友不就是互相保守對方的秘密嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAdJdVh4fSsn
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好朋友?月櫻什麼時候起把我當成好朋友?克里心中又驚又喜。41Please respect copyright.PENANAdOPIf3xFAn
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「那你覺得什麼是信任呢?」克理摸摸貓咪柔軟的肚子說:「當貓咪信任一個人時,牠會露出自己的最脆弱的地方,比方柔軟的肚子,表示信任。但你不能立刻摸牠的肚子,因為露出肚子不代表牠允許你去碰觸,我覺得……有時候信任就是這麼地矛盾。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAClQBnbbogw
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話說完,貓咪踢開克理的手,轉眼間跳到另一張沙發上。41Please respect copyright.PENANAycLe0050Ub
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「那你願不願意跟我說說你的脆弱呀~」月櫻靠著他的肩膀,聲音像撒嬌,眼神卻閃著一絲認真。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjV0zOcijbD
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「其實有時候我很想表達,但我不知道妳會有什麼反應?」41Please respect copyright.PENANATJCDplp5j5
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「我的反應對你來說很重要嗎~」月櫻語尾拉長音,柔聲地說。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwCZQ4B3gJF
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「是蠻重要的,比其他人都還重要喔!」克理說完,臉上一熱,不禁感到一陣害臊。41Please respect copyright.PENANACRh8dFarPc
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「那你覺得不被信任又是什麼?」月櫻忽然雙拳拱著臉頰,露出感興趣的眼神說。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfTKg9XOIdS
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克理苦苦思索,「我覺得呢……要怎麼說……你才能同理不被信任的感受呢……那大概是被小看的感受吧!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAYaxVdFkmeh
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「被小看?被小看又有什麼關係,我還怕被別人期待呢!那種擅自強加的期望才麻煩。」月櫻露出困惑的神情說。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqoM0LYfu8g
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「也許不被別人期待,日子會比較輕鬆,但我也不會覺得自己活著有多重要,在這個世界上有沒有我好像也沒差,這種不被需要的感覺,大概就是不被信任的感受。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAAKM69OH9WE
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「你有過這樣的感受?」41Please respect copyright.PENANA5fUdixFUXX
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「其實從小就常感受到別人覺得我不可靠。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAvXCaxOSBpC
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「真的嗎?你表現得很自律。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAGp4BroLEyx
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「那是我拼了命努力才表現出來的樣子。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAwGGk8BZLuQ
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「這樣活得很累吧!人總是有幾件不太擅長的事,不可能做到樣樣精通。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAh98L4kaDqX
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「對!你說的一點也沒錯。但如果還沒做,就否定你能做到呢?小時候照顧我的奶奶,就不允許我做很多事,她不允許我一個人擅自去朋友家,她覺得我沒辦法一個人平安回家,這就是不被信任的感覺。」說完克理露出傷心的眼神。41Please respect copyright.PENANANFhwCzTu1M
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「於是我也漸漸不信任自己,只要是不照計畫安排的事做,我就沒有把握做好,尤其是遇到突發狀況,我腦袋就會空白,不知道該如何是好。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAKljeshPeTd
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月櫻不知道說什麼話才能安慰,只是靜靜地聽。41Please respect copyright.PENANAh7yx5b0Gxh
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不知過了多久,月櫻喝著檸檬氣泡咖啡,看著沙發上兩隻小貓互相試探、追逐、打鬧,而克理撫摸懷裡的貓,順著毛的方向梳毛,時間好像也放慢了動作。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlqYB1oQjaO
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「難怪你那麼正經八百,原來是小時候不被大人信任的關係。」月櫻用一種看穿他的口氣說:「你這麼努力尊守原則,是不是想證明你也是一個值得信任的大人?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAqzo2gORzbR
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克理鬆了一口氣,彷彿放開心裡上緊的發條,緩緩地說:「呵呵!被你發現了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAu7J478mZRh
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月櫻微微一笑:「我很早就觀察到囉!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAmF5b7tdbJV
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克理難為情地說:「妳是怎麼看出來的?我以為不會有人發現。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAb2mhYBSK2w
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「從你懷疑自己開始,你好像一直在尋找心中的正確答案,你似乎需一個全知的神替你的決定背書,你才肯行動。」41Please respect copyright.PENANACuc1LAFr1d
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克理急忙解釋:「我才沒有信仰。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAXfYNETG7QF
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「有喔~你只是不知道。」月櫻露出頑皮的笑意。「你信仰的叫完美主義。連火鍋也要照實驗步驟煮的完美主義。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAZSvMh2f9XE
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「萬萬沒想到啊!我竟然被一個會把肉煮到老掉的女孩說完美主義。」克理說完哈哈大笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlzRrONqrO5
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「你說什麼?你是不是想死啊?」月櫻叉著腰生氣地說。她拿起抱枕拍打克理的頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvO7AvNPpf4
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「哎呀!放過我,我跟妳開玩笑的,不要認真啊!我快被妳打死了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANANaVnVZoTtI
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「你也太誇張,我抱枕裡還沒放磚塊餒!認真起來,我會放個一兩塊進去。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAjJ86jDxkJT
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「妳是想把我打死就是啊!救命啊!」克理低頭求饒,而月櫻忍不住抱頭大笑。兩人就像剛剛打鬧的一對貓咪,在沙發上打起枕頭仗。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMzsPK1Lh7V
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這時傳來一道聲音,威嚴中帶點女人的溫柔味41Please respect copyright.PENANAnFUazywkod
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「誰想把我的小克理打死啊~」41Please respect copyright.PENANAv9UOPDiBdW
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克理心裡一慌,「葉老大怎麼來了?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAXPU0VkktuX
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月櫻心中大感詫異,「克理,她是你媽媽?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAeaxlCcyxhW
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克理無奈地搖頭,他胡扯地說:「不是,是遠房親戚,你叫她阿姨就好。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAh2AKPrXSsm
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葉紫蘭走近他們的座位,喝了一口青草茶,無關緊要地說:「你好啊!你就是克理的小女友對吧!喔~克理他好喜歡你哦!你一定不知道,他的日記本寫得全都是妳。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAQtDu1FyxMp
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這句話語氣很輕,但效果很重,彷彿在桌上丟了一顆震撼彈。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGJW8NA2Jm9
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克理恨不得想轉身逃跑,但身體卻彷彿石化,動也動不了。41Please respect copyright.PENANALq6Z2txAzh
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葉紫蘭此知趣地離開,「我就幫你到這,別忘了我們的約定。」克理在心中慌得像亂竄的小鹿,妳怎麼可以就這樣把我給爆料。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhYlxGEmC8k
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克理看著葉紫蘭離開,月櫻嬌羞地問:「克理這是真的嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAXsvfQjD6S9
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此時她的臉頰緋紅,就像被雨浸潤過後的草莓。41Please respect copyright.PENANAIQoFexxtUd
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「是真的,我很喜歡妳,不是一般朋友的喜歡,是讓我手心冒汗,心跳加速,又怕又愛的喜歡……有時會當機,有時會中毒,但卻好想跟妳一直在一起的喜歡。」41Please respect copyright.PENANASL51KsRddM
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克理不再隱瞞,放下戒備狀態,他第一次拋出自己的真心話,坦承自己最脆弱的一面。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJPuGsuMDGF
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「所以……你……你現在在告白嗎?」月櫻尾音發抖,她沒想到這個時間點告白,心裡完全沒有準備。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZkC58o7BRL
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克理默默地點點頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6HB6Wiyuf5
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月櫻下意識地問:「那克理,你可以保證愛我多久,一個學期?整個高中?還是一輩子?」41Please respect copyright.PENANA4BDzgWXXDO
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「老實說,我也不知道我能愛妳多久……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAru1kqxukfA
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「既然你不知道……你怎麼可以現在就告白?你不是很重視步驟、過程嗎?這份感情還有那麼多的未知,你就告白了!」月櫻萬分不解,並帶著質疑的口氣說。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6aPOPZGYlv
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克理露出委屈的表情,他可沒有想現在就告白,要不是葉老大的爆料,讓他不得不提早告白。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwN1x6oApqx
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「我們在一起吧!我雖然不能保證會永遠在一起,永遠?到底什麼是永遠,我才活十七歲,哪能明白永遠的概念。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA2y7n0RCLAi
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「我也不明白什麼是永遠,但我也想要你的承諾,我沒辦法再承受被拋棄。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAqnjEq8zM40
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克理沉默,他不想說出那種海誓山盟的話,他心裡抗拒著,沒自信做到嗎?還是不想說謊?可以不要用永遠這個詞語好沉重?但又自認為自己是負責、值得信賴的人?41Please respect copyright.PENANAiKd1t3jOnb
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你要相信我,我可以終身陪伴你。這句話卡在克理的喉嚨說不出來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhzchIMoaBQ
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「沒想到連你都無法給出承諾,你跟花花公子有什麼差別?哼!你也是愛玩弄感情的渣男。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAsDBm0G3yk0
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