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They gave me her conference room.
That alone should’ve made me nervous.
And it did— just not the way it used to.
My palms were dry. My notes were clean. But there was a tightness in my chest I couldn’t ignore—like a held breath that hadn’t found its release yet.
I had exactly thirteen minutes before the clients were due to arrive. Two of them. One older, seasoned—rumored to be brutal behind closed doors. The other was younger, leaner, sharper. New money, hungry, and probably twice as eager to prove something.
And me?
I hadn’t done this before.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcry5FzRcWG
Not like this.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkutWNrp7s5
Not alone.
But Lamija had made sure I’d be ready.
She’d drilled it into me. Rewritten half the deck. Torn apart my delivery, rebuilt it from the bones. Told me to stop performing and start owning the room.
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Out of the nest.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpYdMv9diE
Into the fire.
And I was going to stand in it.
No matter how hard my heart was beating.
I stood at the head of the table.
The room was sharp—like everything Lamija touched. Slate-gray walls, matte black table, tall windows filtered through white blinds. Clean. Controlled. Her kind of space.
My notes were clean. Slides ready. Every figure double-checked, then checked again. Water bottles lined the table. Screen lit. Jacket pressed. Tie straight.
I’d run the pitch three times this morning.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJUOcYCZ9o
Twice with Lamija—sharp, fast, unforgiving.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc06PdvAC1I
Once alone.
That time, I’d whispered it under my breath like a prayer.
Ya Allah, grant me steadiness in my words. Let the truth be clear, and my intentions clean. Let me honor what she taught me. And if I fall short—let me fall with grace.
Ya Allah, give me steadiness. Give me clarity. Let them hear what matters. Let me carry it well.
Simple. Quiet. Enough.
She was here, of course.
Back right corner of the room.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78GV6sW7DO
Not seated—perched. One ankle crossed over the other, tablet in hand, posture effortless but alert. Her blouse was ivory silk, collar sharp, sleeves rolled just enough to reveal a gold watch that caught the light every time she moved. Her heels were navy—deliberate. They matched the lining of her blazer. She didn’t do anything halfway.
Her hijab was pinned smooth, no flyaways, no adjustment needed. Cream, with a cool undertone that made her skin look sharper. Colder.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lbtBOdPZm
Like marble.
She didn’t speak. Didn’t smile. Just watched.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVyAVGcsFf
Like the room wasn’t happening without her permission.
And I still couldn’t tell if that made me want to impress her more—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeDKUeURYF
Or breathe less.
Emir sat two seats down from her, flipping through a hard copy of the deck but not really reading. He didn’t need to.
This was mine to run.
Eight minutes to go.
The door cracked open again.
I turned—expecting a client, maybe a coordinator.
Imran.
Of course it was.
He stepped inside like he hadn’t just told me last night he wanted to “bring popcorn and watch me crash.”16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrIKw51j0S
Now here he was, arms crossed, face unreadable, posted up like he was the damn panel judge.
Great.
He nodded once to Lamija, once to Emir, and then looked at me.
Said nothing.
Just moved to the back of the room and leaned against the glass wall, all quiet authority and well-timed chaos.
Lamija’s face changed—only slightly. The corners of her mouth twitched, the kind of near-smile she saved for him. No tension. No irritation. Just that particular warmth she never wasted on anyone else.
She hadn’t known he was coming. But she was still glad to see him.
My chest tightened for half a second.
I didn’t know if it was the nerves or the feeling of being cornered on three sides—her eyes, his silence, Emir’s calm.
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Straightened my spine.
Focused.
Two minutes later, the clients walked in.
Mr. Mehanović—older, grayer, with a reputation for eating junior execs alive.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3l5sp6J0n
And Mr. Kovač. Jasmin Kovač. Younger. All tailored edges and calculated charm.
Lamija greeted them first—calm, poised, perfectly measured. “Mr. Mehanović. Mr. Kovač. Welcome. We appreciate you making the time.”
Imran stepped forward next, extending a hand to both. His handshake was exactly what you’d expect from him—firm, steady, unreadable.
“This is Ayub Selimović,” Lamija said, turning slightly toward me. “He’ll be leading today’s presentation.”
Simple. Direct. No qualifiers.
I stepped forward and greeted them both—firm handshake, steady eye contact. Direct without posturing.
“Gentlemen,” I said. “Thank you for coming in.”
They nodded, cool but curious. Mehanović sat like he owned the place. Kovač took the seat closest to the screen, already eyeing the slides.
I began.
“Today’s agenda focuses on the updated forecast models we discussed last quarter, plus the implementation strategy for the regional split. We’ve integrated the recommendations from your last round of feedback and adjusted for market fluctuations accordingly.”
The first few lines came out tight. Not shaky, but stiff—too measured, too clean. My voice sounded like it belonged to someone trying to remember a script, not someone leading a room.
Don’t sound like a report. Sound like a leader.
Lamija’s voice in my head, clear as ever.
I glanced at the screen, then back at the table. Forced my shoulders to drop. Loosened my jaw. Let the silence stretch for half a beat longer than felt comfortable.
And then I kept going.
Slide after slide, I found my rhythm. The cadence smoothed out. The tension in my spine started to loosen. My voice dropped into something lower. Steadier.
I hit the key figures. Adjustments. Risk projections. Not perfectly—but cleanly. Each point landing with more confidence than the last.
OShe sat at the far left side of the table, posture perfect, one leg crossed over the other. No notes in front of her—just a tablet, screen off. Her presence was enough. She didn’t need to say anything.
Imran sat across from her, relaxed in a way only he could pull off in a room like this. Elbow resting on the arm of the chair, thumb brushing his jaw, eyes sharp even when he looked bored.
They didn’t flank me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjUfwRd9jq
They anchored me.
And somehow, that made it worse.
I moved to the first slide. Let the numbers speak.
Slowly, the stiffness wore off.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8QCrRlEDG
My voice dropped into something more natural—deeper, more grounded. I stopped hearing myself and started hearing them. Watching for how the data landed. Adjusting as I went.
Out of the corner of my eye, Lamija gave a single nod—barely there.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJzdlvTioB
Support. Approval.
Imran didn’t move. Didn’t smile.
But when one of the clients glanced down at their handout, he flicked his gaze toward me and mouthed, finally.
By the time I transitioned into the second section, I wasn’t surviving the pitch anymore.
I was owning it.
Then the questions started.
Of course it was Mehanović who spoke first.
“What’s your margin of error on the forecast adjustment?” he asked, voice flat. “And how exactly do you justify such a shift without firm historical backing?”
He said it like the numbers were already wrong. Like he was doing me a favor by asking.
My jaw locked for a second. Not visible, but I felt it.
One beat.
Then two.
I didn’t blink.
“Historical models from pre-2020 are unreliable under current volatility trends,” I said, keeping my tone even. “We adjusted using weighted rolling averages from the last six quarters. Not year-over-year. Too many externalities.”
He tilted his head, eyes narrowing. “So you ignored the base decade?”
A trap. One I knew how to walk around.
“No,” I said. “We used it for context. But we’re no longer building in that reality. The post-pandemic market isn’t just adjusting—it’s redefining.”
I watched his mouth twitch. Not a smile.
But close.
He paused. Blinked once. Then nodded.
Kovač cut in next—too quick, too polished.
“And what does that mean for Q3 retention risk?” he asked, but his eyes weren’t on me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLxeAPYfo0
They were on Lamija.
Of course they were.
She didn’t answer.
She just shifted slightly in her seat, crossed her legs the other way, and tilted her head toward me—an unmistakable gesture. He’s driving.
So I took the wheel.
“It means we shift resource allocations before performance dips,” I said, keeping my voice calm, clipped. “Don’t react. Preempt.”
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Lamija uncross her arms—just once. A flicker of movement that felt like approval.
The older man still wasn’t smiling.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaik58rkqM
But he was listening now.
I shifted into the second section.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiz0vfrumV
The one Lamija had destroyed yesterday—line by line, bullet by bullet. She’d taken it apart like it had personally offended her.
Today, it landed clean.
Her eyes stayed on me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkXSdq00I4
I felt them before I saw them—sharp, clear, impossible to ignore.
And then, stupidly, I met them.
Blue. Cold as glass. Always watching, always calculating. But now… there was something else there. Still. Steady. Like she’d been waiting for this exact moment and had already decided it was mine to own.
I looked away before I did something stupid like smile.
Kovač tried to poke a hole in the implementation strategy, leaning forward with a question that sounded more like theater than concern. I answered without raising my voice. Cut clean through the fluff and laid the logic bare.
No hesitation.
And across the table, Imran—who hadn’t moved once since the meeting began—tilted his chin half a degree, eyes still on me.
His version of a standing ovation.
Then came the slide she’d torn me to pieces over.
Slide eleven.
The budget slide.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfwpemt5ix
The one that used to sprawl.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KdLMSOnlG
The one that couldn’t hold its shape.
“This is your cleanest point,” she’d said that morning. “If they’re still skeptical by now, this is where you win them back. Or you don’t.”
I took a breath. Not to steady myself—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNj55WiS8WF
To own it.
I delivered.
I delivered.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapUgX9jSGH
Clear. Grounded. No filler. No stammer. No excess.
Alhamdulillah.
She’d handed me this moment like it was an amanah.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfm6sVqzjG1
Not a favor. Not a gamble.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2jbYLXMDh
A trust.
And I’d carried it the way she taught me—tight, sharp, precise.
And when I finished—even Mehanović looked satisfied.
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We reached the end of the pitch.
“Questions?” I asked.
Silence.
Kovač leaned back slightly, tapping the edge of his pen against his notepad.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkYa5U00rj
Then he exhaled—half amused, half impressed.
“Well,” he said, glancing at Mehanović, “you weren’t who I expected when we walked in.”
His tone wasn’t disrespectful.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6pNnhVSTN
Just honest.
I held his gaze. “Good.”
That got me the faintest smile.
Mehanović didn’t look at either of us. Just gave a slow, deliberate nod.
“We’ll be in touch by Monday.”
He stood.
And just like that, it was done.
We stood. Shook hands. I kept my grip firm, respectful.
“Solid work,” Mehanović said. “Clean. Direct.”
Kovač nodded—still watching me like he hadn’t quite decided whether to respect me or compete with me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhnHdfQjWO
Didn’t matter. I’d done what I came to do.
Imran stepped forward, shook their hands again—his grip steady, his expression unreadable.
“Appreciate you both making the time,” he said. “I have to head upstairs, but I’ll leave you in their capable hands.”
He glanced toward Lamija—brief, instinctive. She gave a small nod.
Then he was gone.
Kovač turned toward Lamija the second the door shut behind Imran.
“You know,” he said, with just enough smile to make it something else, “if you’re free after this—there’s a new café across the river. You should let me buy you a coffee.”
It hit harder than I expected.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgFx1cOD1k
Not jealousy—just the kind of slow punch you feel in the ribs when someone reaches for what you’ve spent years pretending you didn’t want.
I kept still.
Lamija didn’t blink
“Of course, Ayub will come too,” she said, tone light. “He just ran a flawless presentation. I want to celebrate him.”
Kovač blinked, thrown off just long enough to show it.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwPL4ENRZm
He recovered with a laugh. “Then I’ll book a table for three.”
She smiled—graceful, composed, untouchable.
And I stood there, pulse steady, thoughts anything but.
Because she hadn’t deflected.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDMtuIay7W
She’d redirected.
And she’d put me at the center of it.
The café sat just above the river, all glass and polished wood, tucked between two old stone buildings like it had always belonged there. Its terrace extended over the water just slightly, framed by black iron railings and low potted plants that caught the breeze. Below us, the river moved slow and steady, sunlight threading gold across its surface. You could see the footbridge in the distance—arched and elegant, busy with people and spring.
We sat at a small round table near the edge, warm mugs in hand. The metal chairs were still sun-warmed, the air laced with the scent of citrus polish and strong Bosnian coffee.
Jasmin arrived first. He placed his coat neatly over the back of the chair across from me and glanced toward Lamija’s empty seat—already assuming she’d be sitting there.
She arrived two minutes later.
And without hesitation, sat beside me.
Not across. Not diagonally.
Beside.
Like it was obvious. Like it had never been up for debate.
Jasmin blinked, only for a second, then adjusted his smile and sat across from us, folding his hands over the table like none of it mattered.
Lamija didn’t give him a second glance.
Her hijab was cream today, smooth and immaculately pinned, catching the sunlight with every slight movement of her head. The ivory tone softened the sharp line of her blazer but did nothing to dull the way she carried herself—quiet authority in heels and silk.
She reached for her tea with calm hands, posture perfect, expression unreadable.
It wasn’t a date.
But Jasmin tried anyway.
“You always this intense during client briefings?” he asked, stirring his coffee with the kind of focus that felt more performative than necessary.
Lamija sipped her tea, perfectly calm. “Only when the work deserves it.”
“I’ve seen execs with more experience fall apart in front of Mehanović,” he said, nodding toward me. “You didn’t flinch. Impressive.”
“Preparation helps,” I replied.
“Or pressure,” Lamija added, voice smooth. “Some people crack under it. Others sharpen.”
She didn’t look at me when she said it.
But I felt it.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CVWAkV6y5
Like a hand on the back of my neck.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlonxORo4QW
Like breath.
Jasmin chuckled politely, not quite catching the weight of it.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBWlN2P1xu
But I did.
And for a second, it was hard to focus on anything else.
Jasmin leaned forward slightly. “So, do you work under her often, Ayub?”
“Every day,” I said. “Not just work. Strategy. Operations. External comms.”
Jasmin smiled. “Sounds intense.”
I huffed a quiet breath. “She’s been dragging me over glass since I got here.”
Lamija didn’t deny it. Didn’t flinch.
She just reached for her tea, the corner of her mouth tugging—barely. The closest thing she ever gave to a smirk.
He tried again. “You know, I’m usually in Sarajevo twice a month. Wouldn’t mind making this coffee thing more regular. Maybe just us, next time?”
I leaned forward slightly, matching his tone but not his smile. “She doesn’t do regular.”
Before Jasmin could respond, Lamija reached over—slow, precise—and adjusted the cuff of my sleeve. Just a quarter-inch, just enough.
Not for him.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wjxbfSxml
For her.
And for a second, the air around me thinned.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xCpHhOul3
She didn’t touch skin. She never did.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNrt758Bid
But I felt it anyway.
That tiny correction—like I belonged to her image. Like I was something she was shaping.
I wanted to lean into it.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUNidhHzwp
Wanted to stay still and let her fix me forever.
Astaghfirullah.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDRO9M7PMN
I sat straighter.
I picked up the thread. “She’s selective,” I said. “That’s why the numbers stay clean.”
Jasmin laughed, a little tight. “Well, if I want to get time with you, I’ll have to win him over too?”
Lamija smiled, cool and collected. “Exactly.”
I almost felt bad for the guy.
Almost.
He stood a few minutes later, glancing at his watch.
“I should go. But Lamija—am I at least any closer to getting a real date with my dream girl?”
Lamija rose with him, adjusting her blazer with a quiet precision that somehow made it feel like she’d just stepped onto a stage.
“You’re still not my type,” she said, tone even. “But I admire your optimism.”
Then—still facing him, still calm—she added without looking at me:
“Besides, Ayub gets jealous.”
My heart did something I couldn’t name.
And my throat tightened like the air had shifted without warning.
Jasmin froze for half a second before letting out a laugh.
“Ah. That explains a lot.”
It wasn’t true. Not like that. Not out loud.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF9NatPwCy
But the way she said it—light, easy, like it had always been understood—pulled something deep in me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYh4w5z4FZ
Want. Hope. The kind of ache that catches you off guard and makes you forget your place.
I looked down. Breathed once.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPY15fxqJO
Lower your gaze. Steady your heart.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQmF8ut2Xl
She’s not yours just because she’s kind.
She gave him a polite nod. “Safe travels.”
He smiled, gave a small wave, and walked off.
Lamija turned, sat back down beside me like she hadn’t just set the air on fire.
“You handled that well.”
“What, the meeting?”
She arched a brow. “All of it.”
And then—she smiled.
Not the polished one she gave clients.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKu6ggzrpkd
Not the tight, warning one she gave Emir or Imran.
A real one.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5r5hj4Jn2
Soft at the edges. Quietly pleased. Just for me.
I didn’t say anything. Couldn’t, maybe.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RELQ7taTA
Not with the way my pulse jumped like it hadn’t gotten the memo we were in public.
She stood slowly, smoothing the hem of her blazer with practiced elegance. Then—without looking at me—she rested her hand on the back of my chair. Light. Intentional.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7ib7bkrX4
Just enough to make the space between us hum.
She leaned in. Close enough for her voice to drop.
“Keep that up,” she murmured, “and people might really think you’re mine.”
She didn’t wait for a response.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58FaIq71o7
Didn’t need one.
She just walked away.
Controlled steps. Jaw catching the light. Leaving me with a half-empty cup and a body that suddenly felt too warm for the breeze.
The seat beside me still held her warmth.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdHk8RenWY
The echo of her words clung to the inside of my jaw.
Ya Allah, I thought, breath catching, protect me from what isn't written for me.
Because I would’ve let her claim me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefYZdDLz5O
Right there.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8IuBvK8KC
In front of everyone.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7co18gQiS
And I didn’t know if that meant I was falling—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbFKdQXDf2
Or already too far gone.
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Listen. I didn’t mean for this chapter to become a slow-burn power play wrapped in a pitch deck and a hijabi adjusting a man’s sleeve—but here we are.
Ayub presented numbers.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20gDbFXmVb
Lamija presented dominance.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1ykUbe4s3
Jasmin presented… well, effort. We’re proud of him.
And no, Ayub is not okay. He’s reciting du’as and drinking cold coffee trying to survive being publicly claimed by a woman who hasn’t touched him once.
Anyway, thanks for attending this emotionally loaded meeting.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqlFKk5rkR
Please collect your jealousy, your heartbreak, and your half-smiles on the way out.
We’ll see you next chapter.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ybobRbmja
Same table. Different heat.
-Ash&Olive
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