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「你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎？」Priscilla對我說。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgyPLzlPNZ
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我：我冇乜女仔friend㗎。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN9WUqBIrt
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Priscilla：下？你咁都冇？偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ907fChpYAO
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我：幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會，但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7tbxvPCbP
我：講起上次拍拖，都已經係8年前，嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR06LUn8Vv
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說著，我又跟Priscilla說起自己的情史。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoN1MThbFIp
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在大年初一的早上，我和Priscilla在一家中式餐廳吃點心。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx55zVGqQZQ
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我是Andy，又名水神，是本長篇故事的主角。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWCWPYvxDr
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這個長篇故事，就要先由我和Priscilla說起。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONFDGtplKb
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就算沒有看過上一篇故事，看過前言的人，都大概知道我擁有「女裝大佬」我身份。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYn1Cge3uqa
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先報上自己的status和stage，A1，stage最高記錄是 3。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWS8d8Bt8x
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自從8年前和一個在Facebook認識的女生，談過一個月這麼久的戀愛之後，我就再沒有談過戀愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1ky5ll7ej
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甚至嚴格來講，從成年人的角度看，那只是霧水情緣，算不上是正式戀愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3651SA44MD
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為甚麼之後的8年都是單身？雖然我也有宅男的性格，但這不是主要原因。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmR1CsyAhX
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真正的原因，是我沒有把意欲投放到感情生活之上。用比喻說，就像一台電腦進入了休眠模式。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPu6ZXMjp7
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第二個主因，是我把「男生對女生存有性幻想」這件事，想成一件不乾淨的事情，然後再建立出「柏拉圖式的男女關係是最純潔」的價值觀；這也同時解釋了，為甚麼我一直只在stage 3 止步不前。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDgieI8dCF
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不像主流的宅男，我沒有心儀的網紅、主播、男神或女神。看到女神，我多數都在想：怎樣模仿她的衣著打扮？性方面，我頂多只是戀物。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgyEckF9uk
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相信有不少人都會好奇，到底偽娘的感情生活是怎樣？找男生談戀愛？找女生談戀愛？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDZVmiuVxj
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在社會的價值觀規範之下，很多人都會直覺地認為：偽娘就只有找男生談戀愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGliEOVidA2
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大錯特錯！偽娘也可以找女生談戀愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiliEniz4Nk
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我就是這種人。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFbWpbDt5l
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至於我的性取向，到底是甚麼？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffqb2fHRmt
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我曾經回答過異性戀，也回答過無性戀；但無論如何，我就是最傾向找女生談戀愛。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXxyLG3Ds0
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「無性戀」這個字其實被人爭議了很久很久，有人說是的確存在，也有人說它只是個偽命題。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpRFOoRtt5
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有些觀點認為，人不可能完全沒有「性」，要麼就是「性慾低下症」，不然就是受到後天的環境影響，例如文化、成長背景的影響，所以認為「無性戀」是個偽命題。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Lb03rndkU
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舉例說，有些人從小時候，所接受的教育，或者是被某些電視劇集所影響（一些低質劇集甚至把「性」和「性侵」劃些等號），讓他覺得：「性」是不乾淨的東西；然後就是令他以後都會抗拒進入性愛關係，形成所謂的「無性戀」。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzok0AcBswW
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這頓早茶，以AA制完。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e89fSokXQ
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我送著Priscilla回家，在路上，「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架，牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡，又是為做而做的接觸；我都是在最近才真正有「肢體接觸」這個概念的。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38pufjU2he
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在過馬路時，我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀，想了一想，好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlUVxiIyku
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我：下次再玩啦！558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXB31dzaSWG
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Priscilla：來一個抱抱吧！558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaEx9guruH
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在Priscilla家的大廳裡，我和她來了一個擁抱道別。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs9XATDcxm
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這個擁抱，只能算是一般社交式的擁抱；因為我很清楚地感受到，她只是來了一秒，然後就抽身離開，彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajbAbudY9v
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到底，是真的無性戀，或只是未有把「性」這個靈魂解放出來？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1tYDflINq
