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I’ve seen countless shorts, videos, and comments about suicide.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9LRGOw1rO
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People say: “Think about your mom, dad, grandparents, your dog or any pet, your friends, anyone you know. They love you. So don’t do it.”
But let me respond — from the perspective of someone standing on the edge:
Dad — why don’t you talk to me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRh2xLByRN
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Why can’t I remember a single time you played with me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRl6PQ9xAG1
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Why do you mock me, laugh at me, make others bully me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYsmvmVnnG
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Why are you never proud of me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZmUimoG5S
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I know you work hard, but is it really impossible to spare just five minutes a day?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1V7eT870u
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Or even just two minutes in a month to ask how your child is?
Mom — why do you fight with me over everything?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAragLYJYDj
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Why do you taunt me, make me feel like I’m always wrong?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfiLT86VcD
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Why did you steal my childhood and force me into the role of a second mother?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5klioVWWDR
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Why didn’t you let me play, paint, dance, or sing like other kids?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuejHgmo12H
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Why do you compare me with my siblings until they hate me too?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU4XNVDgCA
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I can’t remember the last time you treated me like your daughter — not your burden.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTN0QQ3hGA
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A smile, a hug, a pat on the head — is that too much to ask?
Brother — I raised you. I took care of you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzwwSTgi0i
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You saw me breaking, yet you sped up the process.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Dr4EiPdkF
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Do you remember how you blamed me for everything, how you made Mom hate me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzthSukSn4i
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Do you know how deeply that broke me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeZT1LFIDA
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I tried to protect you — so why did you give me reasons to die?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhwTKNFxbl
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Was your hatred really that deep?
Sister, little kid — even you joined in.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfHha1XplD
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You’ve changed a bit now, but I still remember.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHwhG8EbDG
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I took you to school, protected you, gave you my chocolates and my love.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP097c9FNe
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So why did you help tear me apart?
Grandpa — you were my friend once. Then I found out your truth.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkuJaE7rBA
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Why do you drink, scream, abuse, and destroy everything?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZ8anWY16O
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Why did you have to be another man who hurt me?
Grandma — why did you humiliate me in front of the whole family because of my skin, because I’m a girl?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BFixc1Q1f
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Why do you play your games behind everyone’s back?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDgZlXlZgV
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Why did you become a puppeteer of cruelty?
My two friend-dogs — why did you die so early?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQEei930w2
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I couldn’t even say goodbye.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnbalBE9PM
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I tried to save you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHBbeFX5OL
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I told everyone what really happened.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVg9UiNDAS
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They didn’t hit you that day… so did they kill you later?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwHMTdwMrz
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Was it painful?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05CWp2UyEq
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I should never have left you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2B7VEuHeU
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They told me about your death 15 days later.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHlTqqC6GU
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I asked everyone — they stayed silent.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxEpW6Cxz4
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Was poison really that brutal?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdWj6m66e0
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I went back to that place. A snake bit me.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhazfba2j6Z
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I thought I’d see you again.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5jdfPWUfO
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I’m sorry I wasn’t there.
Principal Sir — you saw my grades for 10 years, my achievements.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpro7ihKWsn
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But not my pain?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICzSlcAcmW
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Why didn’t you ask any questions?
Classmates — I don’t even care anymore.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjEPvcNJCn
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But I remember how none of you talked to me, played with me — for two whole years.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vpYvqY7B8
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You chose silence. What could I do?
My 5th class classmate — you died.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddF0mLiKaf
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The only memory I have is scolding you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrcay47bxU
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But I also remember your last smile.
Coaching Teacher — I asked you for help.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gFBXHK17r
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You laughed. You mocked me in front of everyone.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhX3tITB3kV
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One month later, I attempted suicide.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1OCQrGXv7
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You still don’t know.
To everyone who saw my pain and looked away —17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluA1f2FUWd
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Why?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicTSdn7yWS
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Why did you turn your backs when I begged for help?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMLfYmHkLD
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Why did you make me feel like suicide was my only answer?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFbhoKZA7m
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Why am I falling apart like this?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2ZjN5Ekli
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Why are there blood clots on my body, bruises on my spirit?
So don’t talk online about mental health if you won’t even listen to our side.
Don’t tell us to care about family and friends — some of us never got that kind of love.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPecefu7Ei8
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At least tell us: “You matter — for yourself.”
And remember:
Not everyone is remembered forever.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIm7y3iUWh0
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People move on.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUgcx5XC6G
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Family is not the same for everyone.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPIgPjr0tP
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And love isn’t always where it’s supposed to be.
